Down and under

This year's December is definitely not a good month for me.

I got scolded badly yesterday by the big boss for something I'm not responsible of; that particular department kept on asking information while given too short of a notice to complete it whereby they knew damn well that all these things earlier when the new system was drafted (ingat staf kami 5 orang je seluruh negara?? beribu tahu tak.), I missed my 7.05 erl because my monthly pass buat hal.

While waiting for the train, my mind was racing thinking about the meeting at 9am. She left me nothing but he wanted answers and I'm the only officer representing my unit. The pressure was too hard to handle at the moment, so I broke down and cried at the station. If she still thinks my work is ringan, I'm gonna confront her next week. If she doesn't like me here, I will dare her to sent me to Kementerian and let's see how she'll manage.

I thought of not going to work today. Wanted to divert the destination to Putra Gombak and go back to mom's place. However, on second thoughts, I'm not a quitter. I'm not that weak. I'll fight back and will try to do my best with my team to complete everything accordingly without anyone to rely on at the office. Allah will always be with me. Always..

It's 12.30 noon and it's a Friday. Back to work...