A second chance..

Yup, saya accident semalam. Shocking but true.
It felt just like a dream.. Macam xpercaye..

Ceritanye bermula masa driving nak pegi ofis. Tempat keramatnye slope Jalan Istana menuju Tol Sg. Besi depan TUDM tu. The rain had stopped. The road was slippery. I was on the fast lane. Suddenly,this car in front of me made an emergency brake.
Damn!! I was unable to stop the car on time and my car hit the car in front.

Habislar aku.. Panik sesangat..

I stopped my car when I saw the driver came out of his car. (Mesti kemek teruk punyer la, sebab langgar keta mahal ni.. His is a Toyota Altis)

So I went out to look at the damage I made..
(Dalam hati ,ok ke ni stop kat fastlane.. xpe kot,ade laki cina berdiri atas divider jage traffic sebab ada accident rupanya depan tu)

Fuh, lega siut sebab my plat number patah n kereta depan ni tak kemek skit pun..
I looked from the sideways, there wasn't a dent at his bumper. But this guy claim that his car boot couldn't shut properly..

So, I said..
"Kecik jer ni encik.saya bayar lah sekarang"
This guy dengan muka berlagak ni berkata
"Saya nak tunggu kawan saya datang"

Echeh, kecik camtu pun nak tunggu kawan datang. Gay ape.

Takut die nak mintak lebih, I called Papa for advice..

Baru je sempat cakap "Papa,yaya ni", ade keta laju hit my car from the back, and my car hit me..

Oh my, I was hit by own car....

I was thrown to other side of the road. I felt like flying. In the split moment I can see the sky, the birds.. Matahari baru nak naik because when it happened, it was not even 7 o'clock yet..

I thought I was going to die..

I recited the syahadah and hoping that I will be given a second chance to see my loved ones one last time.. I closed my eyes..

I hit hard on the ground. Luckily I landed on a very narrow kerb at the opposite side of the road.. (I was on the fast lane remember?)

The fussy driver kneeled beside me, asking whether I'm ok. I was half shouted and half crying saying I'm not ok. I had no shoes on. My tudung pun dah tercabut..

And I was lucky again, my phone landed safely on the kerb and Ma was still on the line. I told her, I was hit by a car, my own car. and sobbing non-stop.

She asked me to calm down and keep myself conscious.. She will come to see me as fast as possible.. I kept on crying like a kid whom lost a kitten.. I looked at my car and I cried even more.. And at the same time, I felt very sleepy..

Still crying, I checked for bruises other than on my leg and both feet..
I had no difficulty in breathing and I didn't feel nauseous.. (something I learned during the pbsm classes)

I guess, I'm ok and so damn lucky..

If I had landed on the road, I may have been dead or crippled till death..

Then this Indian guy introduced himself to me as Jay.. He's the runner for a tow-truck company..
He said I couldn't stay there, it's very dangerous. He offered to carry me to the other side of the road since I couldn't walk at all..

And he did carry me crossing 6 lanes of heavy traffic road and put me on his car bonnet..

I just sat there no longer crying..

I put on my tudung..

I smsed my colleague saying I couldn't make it to the office.

I smsed Wan saying I was hit by a car.

Then I just stared at my damaged car..

At the same lane, a few metres back, there was another accident..

Giler lah..

Ma called and said that the ambulance was on it's way. The guy driver and his gay friend just stood a few metres away from me.

I was angry at that guy. dari patah plat number je, langsung jadi accident teruk.. He came again asking if I'm ok..

I just shook my head and I wasn't even looking at him.

I insisted Jay to bring my handbag.. I need my IC to the hospital.

The ambulance came.
Seperti ayat paramedic dalam tv:
1) Does your chest feel painful?
2) Do you suffer difficulties in breathing?
3) Do you feel nauseous?
4) Can u move your arms n legs?
-->I moved my arms n legs..
He checked my BP and pulse..
last question:
Can u walk to the ambulance?

I was sent to HUKM.. Arrived at 7.30, 11 and 1/2 hours later baru dapat balik. A&E yang tersangat slow tahap siput. Kalau pergi kat outpatient pun mungkin lebih cepat..

Wound dressing pun, pukul 6 baru buat..
Sume luke dah kering pun. Pasir2 pada luka tu terpaksa ditonyoh dengan gauze untuk dihilangkan. Menjerit2 dalam hati, punyelah sakit amat sampai mengalir air mata.

I suffer from a fracture bone of my left toe..
I couldn't move my right leg. The x-ray showed no broken bones..
So it must be the muscle..
Big long bruises on my stomach and my left thigh.. (Oh,parut...)
Buat 2x ultra sound in case of internal bleeding at my uterus or kidneys.
Dpt 7hr MC..

tak dapat pegi tapisan halus hari ni..

That's my story.
Something I wont forget for the rest of my life..

Yey cuti panjang..

Hmph,It has been quite a long time since my last post..
Yeah,I've been very malas..

Well,the truth is I've been so busy with my work..
betollar..

Eversince Yati went to HR, I'm all by myself to settle up everything..
Thanx to this another officer from my unit that helps me a LOT.. My boss isn't helping at all.. Don't u know,we are the KPSU now..
hehehe..

My cuti2 raya starts on Thursday.. Papa said,we'll go back to KB on Friday..
Hmph,malas nak bertekak, balik la hari ape2 pun.. Jam pun jam lar..
I'm not the one that drives the car..

Nak cuti ni pun,rase tak sedap.. Keje banyak xsettle..
If 22nd baru msuk ofis, makin banyakla yang bertambah nanti..
Yup,I'll be taking a 6 day off.. Lame kan?

I'm the person who doesn't bring home my office problem..
Whatever happened in the office,stays there..
Tapi bile nak cuti lame ni, kadang2 rase xbest..

Cuti lagi...

I'm taking leave for 3days starting tomorrow till Monday.. I'm going back to KB attending my cousin's wedding..

I've been sick for almost 2 weeks now.. I miss my cute babyish voice *ahaks*..
Although it may not sound a bit like Siti's, I miss my old voice.. I've been having this croaky sexy one since last Thursday..

So I safely went and came back from Genting.. I brought Ma along..
The course was drop dead boring.. Law and I will never click together..
Anyway, the course was a good way introducing me to the group I'll be working with later since I never got a proper introduction to the group..

Well, the bad news is, my back mirror wiper was stollen..
geram thp dewa dewi!!
Of all the luxury cars yg dtg Genting nk berjudi sakan, wiper keta aku yang jadi mangsa..

I was even more sick when I got back home on Wednesday afternoon..
I went to KK kt umah tu but doc tu sgguh kedekut.. bagi aku cuti sehari jer..
padahal, aku datang dengan demam, suara seksi katak ni, n die siap
soh buat blood test sebab suspected denggi, sehari je cuti die bagi!!

The next day, amik EL lar..
Rest through the wiken, but still demam on Monday..
Lutut plak sakit cam aritu.. Telan Voltren lar nak ilang sakit..
Badan aku untuk bln August is sgguh toksik..
PCM 3hr sekali for almost a week, antibiotik for 5days, Voltren plak..

Since Yati is gone for almost a month,my boss pun amik cuti!!
Siap pegi kursus!!!
Sume keje dump on me..

HELP...

Suara pun xkuar bile bercakap..

Rase sgguh xsehat arini..
I'm having that time of the month n seluruh kepala rase sakit.. Nak balik!!

oh, oh, harini I lost rm50..
sedih!! tak tau cicir kat mne..
Rm50 is my meal kat ofis for a month!
punyer la berjimat cermat bulan ni sebab banyak bercuti, birthdays and weddings..
tup tap, ilang wiper n duit rm50..
geram sgguh..

ngadu kt Ma, her words always comfort me.. If she's gone, kat sape lagi la nk ngadu..
Ngadu is one thing and the words you received later is another..
ngadu je but tak dapat respon, serik dah nak cakap ape2..

Oh well, life goes on...

O'oh..

Ok, O'oh I just made my boss mad at me..
*freaking*

I was in a happy2 mood today..
He is coming back and I'll be meeting him after work..
--->sekali beli hadiah kawin Ayu+Farah since we cant attend their wedding reception..
So,kul5, dah packing baanrg and whoosh,I'll b gone..
Kan best if I can disapparate and apparate..
And I finally have the Harry Potter book with me and I plan to read it during the long lunch break..
See, happy2 mood...

The story begins when,
my boss asked me to contact this Timb Pengarah sekian2 tnye perkembangan
this one thing..Okay...
--->Nk contact Timb Pengarah pun dah kecut perut tau tadi..

Everything went fine.. Then I told my boss what this Timb Pengarah told me..
Well, it seems that there's a contradiction between what my boss
and what the Timb Pngarah said.. My boss asked me to contact that guy again and tell him his decision..
--->My boss xagree la dengan what this TP said to me just now..

*O'oh, cuak dah*

Takkan la I have to tell this TP caamtu..mcm kureng sesuwei jer..
Aku ni pegawai bawahan jer..jd messenger..
Slps berbincang dgn pegawai2 yg berpengalaman about it,
I decided to talk to my boss again and tell him nicely that it is more proper if
he inform the TP himself what he thinks about the matter..

*Bismillahhirahma nirrahim*
--->bersedia utk dimarahi..

Pang! kene marah..

Cara die ckp tu,seolah2 I'm not reliable to do this one simple work.. I'm not supposed to b the one doing it in the 1st place..

I dont mind a bit calling the TP, tapi discussion tu patut antara boss n boss, put myself in the middle as his messenger..

Susah hati lepas kuar dari bilik boss tadi.
I was right.. He's avoiding to meet the super big boss..
*sedih*

I confided at one of the PSU, die ckp he's like that..
He wants to avoid the shitty argument, therefore he asked his subordinates instead..
n die ni boss yang pendendam, die akan ingat..
*freaking lagi*

takut wey,nanti markah penilaian tahunan aku die bg ckit..

However,die dah memang marah..

What is done, is done..

What the hell..

No fun...

My super boss asked me to attend this workshop regarding Hospital Support Service in Genting on the 7th-8th August..
I'll b spending 3nights there since the workshop ends at 5pm
on the last day.. Nk drive ke?Takut la plak.. Larat ke Kenari ku yg cute tu naik genting.. Naik bas kang, payah pulak nak travel..

No fun lar pegi genting sorang2..
Sape nk ikut saya gi genting, angkat tangan??

~Yey, 30mins more to go back!! >>>sgguh xsenonoh!
~And another yey, cuti diluluskan.. ;)

Rain..

It rained heavily last night,
and so did my heart...

*sigh*

Does it always have to be this way??

Or is it I'm the one who's not ready..

Good news..

Congratulation to both PSU kontrak in cawangan pnswastaan
yang berjaya dalam temuduga.. It's time they join the service secara tetap..dua2 tu dah 3thn++ as contract PTD..
Anyway, something is bothering me..

Ehehe..
1 of the PSUs tu is in my unit..sangat2 berpengalaman.. All this while, she's the one yg buat kerja melambak2 tu..if she goes, I'll b taking over her job..

Ahahaha..
xde can la nak laid-back bile datang opis lagi..

Tapi, tapi, ade can jugak sbb they'll remain here..
Sb diorg ni batch PTD kontrak yang diberi peluang diserap masuk..
(selepas mengambil kira beberapa faktor sebelum dipanggil interview..)

Seriously, I don't mind the extra work..
If she's here, I'm shadowed by her..
takde can nak prove my capabilities..
Kesian la my immediate boss..
He'll be getting a non-experience PSU.. Ahahaha..

Die pn hrp2 she'll get posted somewhere else other than here..
Cawangan yg penuh kontroversi ni.. Ooops..!! ;)

Cuti2 Malaysia..

I just submitted my cuti rehat form to my big boss..
Please la lulus..
The problem is, on the 30th and 31st tu ade meeting..

31st meeting JPKK..
I'm going to Kuching from 28th to 31st with akak, abg Yie and ma..
Lame sgguh xcuti2.. Then, on the 4th and 5th, nak pegi Pangkor pulak..
Trip dengan Keluarga Bakti..Ma is excited to go..
I don't mind accompanying her..

Ayu is getting married on the 4th..
I thought of going but then, change of plan..
Sorry sangat2 Ayu.. Bukan gi dating, teman mak..
Sorry..

It finally comes to an end..

I haven't read HP #7 yet..
And I'm dying to know what happened in the end..
Well, Akak already told me some of the ending,who dies and who's not..
She read the spoiler at Wikipedia..

Ape daa.. ;)

I don't mind about the spoiler though.. I remember reading HP #5 and akak kept telling me the ending is very sedih.. Made me curious sesangat nak tau sape mati..
The book is thick,rse lmbt sangat nak habis and I couldnt help myself nak bace ending terus..

But I managed to stop myself from doing so..
Tapi,HP #6, Akak said, lagi sedih dari HP #5..
yg ni, mmg xleh stop..
Half way reading,tak tahan lar and I read the ending..Ehehe..
Cerita kt Naz, die pun cakap, ape la bace ending dulu..

Reason why I didn't buy the book yet,
I didn't pre-order the book because the book is much2 cheaper on the
day it releases..Jadi, nak tunggu on that day baru bli..

On Saturday, malas pulak nak bangun pagi2 gi Carrefour sebab Pian cakap,
MPH, Times and Popular boycott nak jual HP #7 sebab they are selling at RM109.90 whereas Carrefour and Tesco are selling it at RM69.90..
of course la ramai beli kt hypermarket ni..
Mama pn ajak pegi tengok Bro Wan kat K.S'gor, I postponed buying the book..
Lunch hour ni nak pegi Alamanda, nak tengok if Carrefour still has it..
Wish me luck..

~Oh,another 3 days dpt gaji baru..
yippee!!!

I hate mold..

I did my 3 day induction course at D*nasty Hotel in KL on the 15 till 17th July..
A nasty hotel..
What I learned during that 3 days is, "Hotel bathroom shouldn't have mold on it's wall"
Oh please lar!!!!
I barely spent more than 5 minutes in that disgusting bathroom..
There's a bath tub, and how I love to soak myself in the hot bath..
But not this time.. One look at the bath tub, euwww...

The room wasn't that nice either..
There were balls of hair under the dressing table, and they
were still there after 2 days of housekeeping..
The window is terribly dirty and the room smelled.. Nightmare I tell u..

But I compliment the food..
The food was delicious.. ;)

It's not all about you..

What did I do wrong?

Since his mom is not feeling well, I said it's not proper for him to spend the whole day with me and he should concentrate more on his mom when he's back in KL..

I said things are not the same now and he should think about what his family will think of me if he still wants to go out with me while his mom is sick in the hospital..

I don't think it's appropriate to date, laugh and have a good time while she's sick in the hospital..

I'm affected too but I try not to have this thing get me.. We can still meet but maybe for just an hour or two.. I don't mind because that is good enough for me..

But I'm the one getting the silent treatment..
I've spoiled his day..

I'm sorry.
but it's not all about you..
What about my feeling? My thoughts?
Have you ever think about how I feel when this happens and how much I tried my best to cheer you up when you are feeling down?

*sigh*

Shedding tears is what I do best now..
Oh I don't mind, I have a big full tank of tears to shed..

Unexpected encounter..

I went for my parliament duty yesterday..
I met my fellow PTD mate, Ryo there unexpectedly..
This guy smsed me yesterday morning saying a friend I know is going to the parliament too.. And I never thought 'a friend I know'
tu is him.. it's nice to meet a friend other than your usual circle
of friends you meet everyday.. (no offense guys ;)

He's a nice guy..A chatty one..
If I have a younger sister,
I would lurve to recommend my sister to him.. *laugh*
If u r reading this ;)
And be nice to me, or else... Ehehehe..

I think I should go out more often and spend more time with my friends on weekends or find a new hobby like collecting stamps (haha) or something to occupy my free time,cheer my mood and not to think about IT too much..

To Aqish, Lin and Balkis, thanx for being so supportive..
Love u gurls so much..

Death..

What is it about death that people fear so much?
Of course death itself is a word people wouldn't dare to say it so many times..
Muslims believe that death was fated from the day we were born..

It is all fated from the beginning.
(I guess most of us watch Final Destination)
We believe in afterlife where every good and bad thing we did are measured equally. We were thought to always be prepared for death..

What I fear most is dying alone because of an unexpected death.
(Of course I fear that I'm not fully prepared to face death and
the life after that) I fear I'm not able to tell my loved ones how much I love them one last time, or give them the last hug..

Sis said I'm the most patient one in the family..
(If u say so ;)
I guess, I never get mad easily.. because whenever I feel like getting angry with the one I love, I'll start thinking, what if this is the last time
I'll be speaking to him/her and the last word that came out of my mouth is
something that hurt her feeling badly. Then my anger will subside automatically..

Dr.House once said in one of the episodes, (I write it with my own words),
comparing a sudden death or getting a fatal illness like final stage cancer,
fatal illness wouldn't be that bad.. At least, your last bit of your life are spent with your loved ones.. If you suddenly died because of an unexpected death, everyone around you will live a life full of regrets..
I couldn't agree more..
(but I'm not saying getting cancer is ok. Nauzubillah)

He told me last night his mother is diagnosed with lungl cancer stage 3.. Doctors are hoping that her body still response to medication
and chemo is the last resort..

I cried when I 1st heard this from him.. I know how much his mom means to him,
and knowing that she has so little time to live.. He has to be strong and so am I therefore I can keep on giving moral support to him, and stand by his side whenever he needs me..

Getting neglected is await and I know this is not the time to be selfish..
I am no longer one of his top priorities because his mother is the only priority..
I can understand that but I hope I'm strong enough..

I pray I have the will to keep US going..

Blues clues...

Ever felt so down for no reason and you just feel like bursting to tears?
I guess, it's the hormone doing it's part..

Due to heavy rain yesterday afternoon, I took the opportunity to take a nap..
Which I ended up having a bad dream about losing my loved ones all at one go.. I woke up crying and continued on crying..
(Tu lar, tido after asar lagi)

I kept on having that unhappy feeling inside me..
At 8pm, He still hadn't arrived in KT..
I missed him badly the whole day..
His mom wasn't feeling that well yesterday and he didn't feel like going back to KT actually.. So he wasn't in a cheery mood either..

As soon as he arrived, I told him how I felt after I had that dream..I hoped to get consoled but I ended up being scolded.. He said I'm adding more sadness to him..
Really I didn't mean it......
(Maybe he wasn't scolding me and I did make he more sad, but being in that kind of mood, his words were like pouring salt on an open wound, my mood went way down)

Lepas 'kene marah' and no 'I miss u' in return, dah takde mood dah nak bersms..
Feeling blue, my tears continued on falling..
@12am, I was still crying for I didn't know the reason why I was feeling so sad..
The tears kept on falling until I felt asleep..

Waking up, my eyes all puffy.. Dah la sepet, bertambah sepet..

The mood still hasn't changed..
And for the 1st time, I'm so glad it's Monday..
I can get away with all this weird feeling I'm having inside..

To my dear endocrine system, please get back to normal..
I am not used to having all this sad mood..

The Officers I work with

Siapa boleh teka which one is my boss?? Hahahahahaha

Staying in or going out?

July is a busy month for me.. And I'll be out of the office most of the day..

I'll be attending my 1st course in Kuantan from 1st to 5th july..
Something to do with Modified Budget System.. (????)
We (Lin and I) the lower grade officer were asked to attend the course because the bosses arent interested to go.. When we checked through other participants' names,we are the only 'org kecik' attending the course without our bosses..
Dah la baru 4bulan dlm service, kene pegi kursus camni plak..
Pegi ajerla since no one wants to go anyway..
And we can't attend jamuan perpisahan SUB on the 5th tu :(

12th, Parlimen Duty (I hate, I hate)
13th, Meeting HSS kat JKN Negeri Sembilan
17-18, Roadshow SIHAT kt JB
19th, meeting JPKK
Then ade induksi Ministry which the date hasn't decided yet..
30-31, I'm taking 2days off..going on a vacation with
Akak, Abg Yie and Ma to Kuching from the 28th..

And July,dapat gaji baru..Yippee..

What a sad song..

I downloaded this song a few months back..
Only recently i really 'listen' to its lyrics..
Really a sad song..

Jika ku tak bangun esok pagi by Yusry

jika ku tak bangun esok pagi,
sayangku kau jagalah diri,
sentiasa ingatkan hati,
dirimu amat ku cintai.

andainya dihimpit kesusahan,
sujud dan mohon pada tuhan,
agar diberikan bimbingan,
meniti hidup bersendirian.

(chorus)
bila terasa sejuk,
pejamkan mata,
bayangkan dalam dakapanku,
bila terasa rindu,
pejamkan mata,
kita bersua dalam lena.

kalau ada yang sudi mengganti,
sayang lepaskanlah ku pergi,
kerana insan yang seistimewamu,
berhak untuk dicinta dalam hidup.

sayang tiada apa yang kekal di dalam dunia ini,
namun yang pasti,
walaupun ku tiada nanti,
cintaku akan kekal abadi.

ku berharap kau tak akan lupa,
mengirimkan bekalan doa,
kita jumpa lagi di sana nanti,
jika ku tak bangun esok pagi

Sedih kan?? T____T

Shopping shopping Malaysia...

I went out with Aqish today.. We went to OU, my fave shopping complex
(dekat n parking murah)
Spending time with my best friend b4 her semester starts..
We've known each other for almost 11 years now..
We went out at 1030am and retired at 230 after we realised our darling feet needed rest..

Memang penat giler.. I was looking for a black suit, itu jer..
But we went in every shop that catches our eyes with big word "SALE"..
And I did buy a black suit from Seed at 50% off..
A very good bargain..

I like shoes..
Heels particularly.. Nothing below 2inches high.. With ribbons or butterfly motives interest me..
My friends notice it too.. whenever I went into a shoe shop, and they saw shoes with big ribbons or butterfly motives, "Ni kasut fave Yaya"
Gurls, you know me too well... ;)

Doze off..

It's almost 2.45.. It's time to get back to work but my eyes suddenly cant barely open.. I didn't sleep at all last night..

The new Agong is going to visit KKM.. supposedly next month but the date was postponed again.. Nevertheless, the meeting and preparation still go on..
And my unit is supposed to prepare some information about
Hospital Support Service and I have to submit the thing by today..

Yati just received all the info + pictures from the concession company yesterday morning.. I was working my a** off trying to finished the write-up yesterday plus many other things..

By 5.30, still hadn't finished. A few staff left were packing their things ready
to go back. The weather outside was cloudy, it's going to rain for sure..

I packed my things. I had to finished the work at home tonight. esok pagi ade meeting at 830 pulak.. Arriving home at 730; bumper2bumper crawl from Sg.Besi toll
all the way to TUDM.

At 9, I was yawning like crazy..
I slept until 1, but bangun tido every half an hour checking on the time..
Takut tibe2 dah pagi and the work has not been done yet..
At 1, I started my work until a quarter to 5..
If I sleep now, I don't think I'll wake up at 530..
So I lied awake until 6, malas nak bangun sebab tibe2 ngantuk..
Seperti kebiasaan, as the clock striked 630, dah kua lagu MHI kt TV,
I was berlari2an utk bersiap..
Disebabkan adrenaline rush pagi td, ilang ngntuk xtido tu..

tapi skrg ni, memang xleh bukak mate..
I cant drive in a situation like this..
Pintu suke hati Doraemon, I need u right now..

Rose among thorns..

A friend once asked me,
"Would you go into an elevator full of men and you being the only lady?"
A simple answer to a simple question.
"No, I will not" I said.
I'll feel weird being in a small space and I being the only lady..

So, just now, I encountered the real life situation..
as the elevator door opened, and I was standing right in front of the door ready to go inside.. Damn, the lift was full of men in bj.melayu n selipar jepung..
All 7 or myb 8 pairs of eyes were looking at me stood frozen in front of the lift..
Luckily another lift opened, I walked into that lift quickly as I heard them laughing...

Phew..

I should b thankful..

Lin treated us (Naz, Una and I) for piza yesterday..
thank u so much Lin..
I really miss hang out with you guys..
Bad news from Una..
Her boss said she may be transferred somewhere else..
She was so upset..
Cheer up Una.. We are here for you whenever you need us..

Shopping....

So, the Malaysia's Mega Sale is back..
16-June till 2-Sept..

Once gaji masuk bulan ni, shopping complex akan dibanjiri oleh manusia2 yang hutang masih belom bayar, baju2 pun masih ade yang belom pakai dalam gerobok, handbag lame pun msih baru, kasut2 masih dalam kotak, tapi mereka ini masih nak datang shopping complex..
Window shopping katenye..
Yang peliknye, balik dari window shopping kononnye tu, beg2 plastik sampai tak muat 1 troli..

I can't spend on anything on this month's pay..
And damn, one of my ERL ticket's missing..! kurang rm35 claim..
Bulan ni paling byk spend sebab tukar 2biji tayar keta..
n bulan ni jugak la facial wash, lipstick n compact powder habis..
But I have nothing in particular to buy..
cume nak shopping baju n kasut raya

puasa ganti belom abih lagi, nak shopping baju raye...... Insaf la woi.. hehehe

Kene lagi..

I've been tagged lagi.. this time by zyrin..
It's an interesting one, tp kne amik mse sikit nk buat..

A long week...

The clock shows at 4.50..I guess it's ok to blog for I have nothing much to do..
It's been a long week..
With the KLOIC going on n most of my friends in the ministry are very busy with the event.. A few officers in my dept are assigned to be LO for ministers from the OIC countries and 2 are taking leave..
Lin is in Genting, Una's in T'ganu, Naz, Walter, Farah are busy with KLOIC..

After 3 months working, I begin to like my work..
Yeah, especially the auditing work..
I can feel how powerful I am n how scared they feel toward us..

Hihihi...
Tu baru kuasa sikit, hehehe..
I begin to think that my boss isn't that bad..
So grateful he's not the type yang garang n suke tengking2..
He likes to chat and I guess that bonds us together in our unit..
Unless a few other things that I think he really should improve as a boss..

I can't wait next week to come..
ntahla..
I kinda miss my friends..

Tomorrows June 15th, batik time..

I hate Parlimen duty..

I know it's 11am and I shouldn't be blogging right now..
But i just received this memo,
"Sukacita dimaklumkan bahawa Mesyuarat Kedua, Penggal Keempat, Parlimen Kesebelas akan bersidang pada 18Jun-10Julai 2007 (Dewan Rakyat) dan 11 Julai-24Julai2007 (Dewan Negara). Sehubungan itu, tuan adalah dikehendaki bertugas di Parlimen pada tarikh yang ditetapkan seperti di Lampiran 1" 12Julai2007(Khamis)-Pn.S*raya binti S*keri..

Waaa, malas nye nak pegi..!!! Nape kene pegi duty 2x ni dalam setahun!!!
Dewan Negara plak tu..

Harap2 dapat jumpe orang yang dikenali..

Terengganu

Pantai Batu Burok yang kotor dan banyak sampah..
Nak jalan without your slipers pun bahaya nanti tercucuk lidi.. teruk lar diorg ni..
Makan tak reti nak buang dalam tong sampah ker..

However, had our first beach stroll.. Ihik..
Sadly, he had to go to Tioman the next day and there was no reception there... *sulk*

A dozen of roses..

My 1st ever bouquet of roses.. Thanx =)

Double chin..

I think I'm getting fat eversince I started working..
(Oh puh-lease I heard my 3 sisters and friends saying out loud ;)
My maid said my double chin is getting so obvious..
I notice it too but I thought it was always like this..
Oh no, oh no... I keep saying to myself..

I have to get back to my diet routine again..
No rice, no oily food, lots of veges and fruits, no fatty, sweet, delicious snack in between meals, and exercise, exercise, exercise...

Sis Yanti said I obsess with my weight..
I have a BMI of 19.0..
It's an ideal weight already.. My weight hasn't increased a kg.. But I don't see myself as slim..
My thighs are fat, flabby arms and double chin.. and perut pun macam da buncit sebab kain baju kurung ketat..
argh, ni deskwork punye pasal and aircond yang terlalu sejuk..
extra generation of fat sebab 10hours terlalu sejuk di ofis..

I was once a bulimic for 3weeks..
giler kan?
So called a nutrition student I am..

maybe I should stick to granola bars, only 90cal/bar..Ehehe..

I'm sorry for the late reply.......

Have you ever experienced, when you were in the middle of an exciting sms conversation, you were teasing that someone or giving sweet remarks or making funny jokes and you were expecting a good reply but the reply you received was not only 20minutes late, but it went like this,

"I'm sorry for the late reply, the boss wanted to see me just now". or

"I'm sorry for replying late, I'm at the supermarket now doing grocery shopping." Full stop. or

"I'm sorry I reply late, I'm driving right now. crazy traffic jam. I wish my car can fly." Full stop..

The annoying part is, after that full stop, the topic discussed
before the boss wanted to see him or
before she went to the supermarket or
before he was driving, was never mentioned again.

And the excitement just died.

How much longer can I stand..

Yesterday was a disaster..
I had a flat tyre and my phone was out of battery.
It was not totally flat but punctured and it can still manage a few km to a gas station.. I changed my plan of going to the netball training that evening..

I am not familiar with Putrajaya area so looking for a gas station took almost 20mins..
Sebenarnye dalam hati tu panic sangat2 but I tried to stay calm..
Lepas tyr dah kembong kembali, I started my journey back home..

Jam, jam, jam…

Nsk elak Jln Istana, masuk Loke Yew, jam jgk..
Nak elak Jln Kinabalu, masuk Jln Raja Laut, lagi teruk jam nyer..
So I ended up arriving home 10mins before 8..
With a flat tyre..
*sigh*

Anyway, Alhamdulillah, I manage to get home without having to change the tyre by the side road.. Phew...

Birthdays

Naz, Una, Lin, Yaya

Yippee..

So, PM just announced the pay rise percentages for civil servants..
Alhamdulillah.. and yippee..
I did my new salary budget straight away after the announcement..
I can add a bit more to my monthly saving and I think it's enough to
get married in 2years time after my DPA.. Oops, did I just mention the 'M' word?

Being a civil servant, of course I am overjoyed by this news..
One of the reasons why PM agrees with the pay rise is because they claimed 'small' pay leads to bribery..
Bribery..Orang yang bergaji besar ade yang amik..
Working under the procurement division I can't hide from hearing this and that..

Gaji kakitangan sokongan dinaikkan sehingga 35%..
No offense, tapi bagi yang betol2 buat kerje, you really deserve it..
Tapi bagi ysng asyik MIA sebab pegi 'berasap', MIA sebab pegi buat urus niaga
direct selling, minum pagi lame, buat keje lambat, bergosip2an,
you don't even deserve to be here.. banyak lagi orang kat luar tu nak keje..

I like to observe and I observe really well..
Kalo bab bergaya, memang kalah kami yang pegawai ni..
Kadang2 rase cam ayam kampung plak compare dengan mereka ni..
Lunch hour, wow, mewahnye mereka mekan..
Kami pun makan xorder air sebab nak save budget
(skali skala, order lar tp kebiasaannye x)..

Hmm, cukup or tidak gaji tu, bergantung kepada bgaimana kite manage duit gaji kite..
If nak makan mewah and pakai mewah, mmg la xcukup..

BTW, happy 3months working in the service to me..

Wedding..

Just received this pictures..
Wan MITI' s wedding on the 5th of May 2007
Congratulation to Wan..
And I went there with, ehem.. :)

From left:Rio, Wan MOT, Yaya, Edy

Yaya, Edy and Azrin

Hero-hero course saya..

Only 3 Malay males Food Science Course batch 2003/2004
Idham, Abe Fadhli, Bakri..
Miss u guys lar..

Traffic jam and KL

I witnessed the worst jam ever yesterday morning..
The crawl started 50m before Sg.Besi toll all the way to TUDM, until the exit to Jln Tun Razak..
Crazy! a small accident can cause such a severe 'damage'..
I'm sure many showed up late at work yesterday..

I almost caught up in the jam this morning..
Luckily I was a few mins early and the crawl wasn't that bad..
An accident involving a kancil, toppled in the middle of the road..
The road converged from 3lanes to 1 lane..

Recently, I feel so malas to wake up as early as 530..
I snoozed my handphone clock until 6am..
Then jumping out of the bed, everything was done in fast forward mode..

Anyway, Sis Yanti gave birth to a 3kg bb boy yesterday..
Alhamdulillah..
Yey, another nephew..!!
I drove straight to HUKM from work..
There was a complication and she had to go through C-section
I didn't know the way there except from MRR2 so I just gamble my way.
I missed the exit to Jln Loke Yew and I had to make 1 big turn to get back into that road..
And a stupid car almost knocked down my Kenari.Sipi tersgt..

I'm glad Sis Yanti and baby are in good condition..
More post about this new nephew of mine later..
Btw, I'm thinking, what should I buy for my new nephew..

~takutnye beranak...

Monday oh Monday...

This is how I am on Mondays..

My Mother, My Life

Mama and Niece Hannah

Plain Lazy...

Choices..

I just hate it when it comes to decision making..
It makes it even harder when the choices u have are equally good..

I made my biggest decision in choosing my career..
Which I have no regret of, so far..
A choice which lead me to make this another choice..

It can no longer be delayed..
So I made it clear today..
I hope I made a good one.
Anyway, I felt really good after saying it..As if a big heavy burden gone..

'Regret' is a word I would not like to associate with.
It does nothing but makes me even more sad instead and I will start saying "What if..."

Being independent..

Bro Wan registered at his new school last Friday..
I nearly came to tears when he hugged me that morning..
Can't believe my baby brother is living on his own in boarding school..
Can't imagine him washing and folding his own clothes (which he never did when he was at home)..

I went to school with him eversince he was in standard 1 while I was in form2 until I finished secondary.. He was the reason why I was always late to school..
And I was the one who sent and fetched him to afternoon religious school until he managed to go there on his own..
At that time, there were times I thought him as a burden but once he is no longer depending on me, I just missed him terribly..

We (Ma and I) went to visit him yesterday. Luckily, the traffic was smooth sailing..
Seeing him among the crowd of students, he looks so small and innocent..
He said he's getting on with his new life there. He studied until 2am (he never did that. He played game until 2am) because term exam is coming up this Wednesday and he has a lot to catch up if he doesn't want to end up in the last class..

Again, Ma came to tears when it was time for us to go back..
Ma gives himn an option. If he doesn't feel happy staying there, he can always ask to go back.
So, if he stays there, I'm the only product of a daily school..

Doesn't really matter now..
Daily school or boarding school, I've finished my degree and I am now working.

I'm flying..

Love is in the air or is it I'm the one flying?

I simply like him.. When he 1st said the 3letter word yesterday, my heart was thumping hard.. for the next 24 hours, I cannot think of anything else but him..
Is this what they called love?

We went together to the wedding of one of our PTD friend yesterday. This was our 3rd date and the 1st time we were seen together in front of our deary PTD friends. The speculation are spreading out now. Are we an item? Wearing the same theme colour, coming together in the same car, really creating a new gossip.

He went back to Terengganu today. Gonna miss him a lot.

~Will long distance relationship works for us?

Kene lagi..

It's Friday.. Long lunch break.. No more going to Alamanda please..
I read my sis Yana's blog..
she tagged me again..
So here I am..

Part 1 - ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Suraya
DOB: April 26th
Current status: Single
Eye color: Dark brown
Hair color: Black
Right of left handed: Right
Zodiac: Taurus

Part 2 - ON THE INSIDE
My heritage: Half Malay and half Chinese
My fear: Losing my loved ones, car breakdown, drowning
My weakness: Fried chicken, my mommy
My perfect pizza: Don't eat that often.. erm, lots of pepperoni and
cheese

Part 3 - YESTERDAY, TODAY AND TOMORROW
Your first thought waking up: On working days, "I hate going to work" On non-working days, at 6am, "I love weekends"
Your bedtime: in between 11 to 12.
My most missed memory: Ma sending me to kindergarten by bicycle. And sometimes there was a dog chasing us.

Part 4 - YOUR PICK
Pepsi or coke: Neither
McD or burger king: Always McD
Single or group dates: Depends
Adidas or nike: Doesn't really matter
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Not much of a tea drinker
Chocolate or vanila: Vanilla
Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee. Can't live without.

Part 5 - DO YOU..
Smoke: Nope
Curse: Only when I encountered M'sia's stupidest drivers

Part 6 - IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank alcohol: Never ever
Gone to the mall: Last Tuesday. 3 malls in one day ;)
Been on stage: No
Eaten sushi: Nope. Sushi doesn't suit my taste anymore since I read an article about it 3years ago.
Dyed your hair: nope..

Part 7 - WHAT WERE YOU DOING
1 minute ago: typing 'nope'
1 hour ago: Read my sis Yana's blog
4 1/2 hours ago: In the meeting room, forcing my small eyes wide open
1 month ago: At work but not working.. (huh??)
1 year ago: Struggling to finish my thesis which I ended up getting only B+

Part 8 - FINISH THE SENTENCE
I love: my life
I hate: Stupid, inconsiderate drivers, people who litter anywhere,
anytime, that someone at my office (oops!),
I feel: happy because tomorrow's Saturday..yippee
I hide: my feelings excellently
I miss: lazing around at home in front of the tv
I need: to finish my report but malas..

Not tagging anyone.. (^^)v

Holiday....

Only 5 of us showed up at the office today..
My 'tooot' attended today's meeting but went missing through out the day until it was time to go back.
I didn't understand half of the things discussed in the meeting this morning. And I was asked to submit a summarised report.. (trouble!)

Well, I had my lunch with a friend who came all the way from KL.
Really appreciate it ;)

Owh, it's time to go back already!!

1 year ago..

1 year ago,
At this time around, I was with my coursemates at Alamanda having lunch and feeling amazed at Zaidi Omar's six pack who was by the way standing next to us...
We just got back from our interviews at Parcel C...
A day before that was my last final paper, Pemakanan Untuk Kitaran Hidup.. Prof Suriah won't be proud with my answers.. oooppppsss

Oh, I miss my lecturers terribly..
I miss dozing off in classes especially when it was raining outside..
I miss burning the midnight oil on my bunk bed memorizing the functions of vitamins, food acts, Food preservative, food microbes etc and coffee was my life..

I miss going to seksyen 1's BBB pasar malam deciding what to eat for dinner, should I or should I not buy kebab melawati that week..
I miss wearing my lab coat and pretending I'm a geek scientist discovering a new formula on how to kill all the fat in one's body other than liposuction..
I miss sleeping in the afternoon after a long day of classes and lab..
Overall, I just miss being a student with nothing to worry about except getting A's for exams..

~tapi tak rindu dekat orang2 admin UKM

Happy at 23..

Alhamdulillah, I am 23 today..
rase macam tak percaya dah 23.. I feel old already..

I received my new pc yesterday afternoon..
So, I'm officially doing my work in my own cubicle now..yippee..
However, 1 mende yang tak best about my cubicle, it's situated betol2 opposite this another officer's cubicle. n when he's doing his work, he will be facing me..
jadi, kene la berlakon bz all the time (^^)v

Time is moving so fast.
On the 1st day of work, my ma said,
"I cant believe my baby daughter is now a working lady"
I cant believe it myself ma..
2years in kindergarten, 11years of 'Selamat Pagi Cikgu',
4years of 'wey,pinjam nota kuliah' and now,
I'm in one of those cars heading to the workplace at 630 in the morning..

Hmph, lepas ni, my ma akan cakap,
"Cant believe my baby daughter is getting married"
*laugh*
Not in this 2 years time.. I'm sure of it..

Touch n cant go..

Pagi yg kelam kabut..

Hampir2 menggunakan my MOH access card for toll this morning..

Pagi ni nak msuk parking space, nak gune Touch n Go card instead of my access card..
Panic bile palang tak nak angkat..
Ingatkan access card ade problem and dah risau nak kne reverse keta balik..
Fuh, a big relieve when I noticed I was using the Touch n Go card..

Silly me..

Surprise, surprise..

I arrived at work this morning and I saw a cute little teddy bear on my table..
It 'holds' a card..
A birthday card..

An early birthday wish from a charming friend..
You bright up my day today..
Thanx.. ;)

I'll place Ron, (the bear) on my office table to accompany me..
Hope Ron won't be lonely on weekends..

Anyway, last Sunday, out of the blue, someone I never expected smsed me inviting me for lunch..
I was having my own sweet time lepaking at home..
Since he's buying lunch, then why not..

Life is so unpredictable. That's why it is so interesting (^^)v

Bangun pagi, gosok gigi.........

Someone told me once, you'll feel good when you know you look good..
Well it's true..

Of course I'm very liat to wake up at 530 in the morning during workdays and thinking that I have nothing to do at the office but reading files..
But when it comes to dressing up to work, choosing colour of shoes and handbag, I get excited..
(Well, I only have 3sets of handbags and shoes though which is white, black and brown.. ;)
And I really like to drive, listening to my fave songs and sing along with it (which I never do when I am at home)

I am a morning person. I am at the most cheerful mood in the morning. I'll even laugh at your bad jokes if u tell me one..

Gurlie stuff

It's so true, love comes when you are not ready and not looking for it.. *wink*

2months..

It has been 2months now..
But I still feel like a month ago..

How I wish these people work like the people in the private sectors..
If only I had the special power to demolish all these bad hats..
'How I wish' and 'If only' are all I can say..

I pray that I will not end up like them in years to come.. AMinnn

I love cakes..

I am turning 23 in a few days. Another year older, should I or should I not be happy bout it?Ehehe..
Alhamdulillah Allah has given me a good 23 years of life.

Birthdays make me think of the past.
On how I have lived my life back then..

I am so grateful, at 23, I already have a secured job, great family and awesome friends.
What more is there to ask for? Love life? Oh, I dare not and I choose not to think about it now or in another 2 years time.

When people start asking ques like "What do u want for your birthday" or "What do u like most in life" (A polite way of saying, 'I dont know what to buy for your birthday present'), I will start to think about it myself..

I am an easy person to please. A simple gurl living a modest life.
For the time being, I just wish my family stays by my side forever and my friends will b here when I need them..
There's nothing more to ask.

Officer in Duty at the Parliament

My 1st ever experient entering the Parliament building today was very kelam kabut.

I was all alone, I arrived late because of traffic jam at Sg Besi, then I wasn’t sure with the road and when I arrived there was no more parking space left to park.

I was 15 mins late and it had already begun. As I opened the door, gladly, I saw a familiar face. He was Rizal, my fellow ptd mate

The 1st one and a half hour was the verbal answering session. There were 3 ques asked regarding my ministry. Later after that, bermula lah sesi gaduh2 yang selalu tengok kat berita tu. Able to watch this 1st hand was very seronok. But even how ‘hot’ the ‘discussion’ was, I still managed to take a 10mins nap (or maybe more). Told you I can sleep anywhere, anytime.

Lunch time, I had my lunch with Rizal. I didn’t know where my partner from MOH was and I wasn’t looking for him either. I guess, I’m more comfortable being with someone I knew. We had a long talk while waiting to come back in at 230. While other ptds are so busy with their works, there are still a few bunch like us who are still ‘loitering’ around doing nothing day in day out. Anyway later, we saw another familiar face. It was Ghani with a brand new hairstyle.

Like a bunch of schoolkids, we took turn taking pictures. I’m sure there will lots of time more for us attending the parliament in the future. Tapi saje nk amik gambar jugak.

Afternoon session was very dull and boring. Rizal and I took a nap few mins after it started. And Ghani woke me up once. Luckily, I wasn’t drooling. 

There was this one guy who slept and he snored. I couldnt help laughing. Nasib la x didengari oleh YDP.

Alhamdulillah it ended early at 540. I dropped Rizal at KTM Putra station. It was a bit of embarrassing because my car was very untidy, socks, shoes bergelimpangan.

Overall, it was a great experience. Hmph, from my observation today, whenever the ‘other’ party raised up their issues or commented on the govt systems, I can sense their unsatisfactory and wanting of ‘equality’ and ‘fairness’. Owh, fullstop, no politic talking..

Am I lucky...

I read a few of my old posts..
Eee, boringnye blog saya ni.. >.<
Ape2 lah..

Wow, Friday the 13th..
Teringat cite Freddy Krueger yang memberi nightmare kecik2 dulu

Anyway, I'm wearing red today..
A colour I never like and I never bought anything which is red in colour..
But the weird thing is, I always like to see guys wearing red.. *wink*
(hmph, red baju melayu.. Ahaks, today's Friday, nanti nak cari ade x mamat yg berbaju melayu merah..)
Kesian baju kurung ni terperosok di blkg almari sbb I never wear it since it was made by Ma 5years ago..

Physically, I remain the same as I was 10years ago.. Maybe 2-3kg added but nothing more..
I can still wear my old clothes from secondary school.. (No wonder, bile balik kampung jumpe relatives yang tak berapa kenal, diorg tanye form berape ;)
sejak msuk kje ni, 1bln pegi keje pn, baju kurung msih tak rotate lagi .. And I can wear ma's clothes mase zaman die muda2 dulu..

I never thought much when buying clothes..
I still wore kikilala brand in early secondary.. Of course I detested, but what choices do I have..
Branded clothes were never a choice during schooldays. While my other frens went for BUM (it was considered branded that time), GUESS?, NIKE etc, etc, I wore a billabong t-shirt made in Thailand..hehehe.. And now, I still experienced that again when they (my friends dulu tu) go for Zara, CD, MNG etc, etc.. some people never change..

But thanx to my parents for teaching me that now..I love my money, rm50 for just a top is considered very mahal..And I was shocked when 1 of my friends said her plain (and for me it's ugly) skirt is "only rm100", just because it has a British India Co tag sewed inside.. I just couldn't understand why some people go all out for clothes.. Why not just keep it nice, simple and economical..It's just clothes after all..

Weekends..

My sis Yana said, she has this weird habit where she is very liat to get up on working days but excitedly wakes up early on weekends..
After almost 2 months working, I think I am having the same habit she called weird..

On working days, I have to get up at 530 in the morning and I must be on the road sharp at 630.. 2-3mins late, boom, traffic jam at Jalan Kuching.. I set my phone alarm clock at 5 because when the alarm goes on, I'll snooze it until 5.45.. Dengan lemah gemalai, every action is done in slow-motion mode..

But on weekends, alarm goes on at 6am, joyfully I wake up with this energy and plans what I want to do on those 2 non-working days.. (Well, my weekends are usually lepaking at home with ma if she doesn't have her marhaban activities)

Oh, how I love Fridays..
I wake up everyday counting days to Friday.. (^^)v

p/s: 2more days to Friday..yippee!!

Bomb exploded yesterday...

My unit organized an event this morning. A big one..
Being the new staff in the dept, I just followed what others been given..
They asked to make the registration booklet where all the guests will be asked to write down their names.. No problem with that..

But this morning, 'a bomb' exploded in front of the guests out of the blue..

We, (other staff and I) arriving early there. We made 4 copies of the registration book so that the guests didn't have to wait long just for the registration. A few guest had arrived.
Then, this time-bomb waiting to explode, (she's actually the 'pengerusi' in charge of the event) arrived. She said loudly, "Pendaftaran di sini ye"

So, the officer in charge of the registration, told her that she already did the registration book..
All of a sudden, she exploded in front of the newly arrived guests, then she went into the hall..
Everyone was speechless with what just happened..
Even the guest stood still when it happened..

Well, she's being the pengerusi for the event, she should make sure her AJKs have done their job..
And they've did theirs.

Of course, after the registration was over, 'parlimen' bersidang..
but I didn't join in the crowd. I was more interested to check on the ptd group because one of us told me that they've created a rumour about me and this other PTD..

Anyway, things I've learned today, jangan emosional tak bertempat..
jangan la nak meletup in front of the guests..
tak profesional langsung.. memalukan jabatan jer...

Drivers I hate..

Driving for 45km to work and 45km back home give me the chance to encounter all sorts of drivers in KL..

I really hate:

Drivers who never use the signal light..
Cars with broken brake light..
Cars who signaled but stays forever on the same lane..
Drivers who don't switch on the light during heavy thunderstorm..
Drivers who drive at 60km on the middle lane..
Drivers who throw rubbish out of the window (rase nak campak sampah tu balik masuk kereta die!)
Pemandu yang gune lampu tinggi.. (Woi, g*** ker, sakit mata tau tak?!)

Hangin betol if jumpe all seven categories on the same day!!

When ur boringness is at the maximum level...

I am drop dead boring day in day out at work..
Someone please help me..
Abih sume bbc news, washington post, aljazeera, and segala mcm web ilmiah yang takpernah ade interest nak bukak, telah ku khatam tiap hari.. Nasib le web forum cari.com kene block, if not, habih sume gosip terkini pun auto update dalam otak ni..

Dating, hanging out and stuff...

My sis asked me whether I'm free this weekend and as usual, my answer would be, "Yes, I am".
Then, she commented on how I always spent my weekends at home. Don't I have dates or other stuff to do on weekends.. (aka Loser!)

And so I wonder..
Honestly, I haven't been on real date for such a long, long time.
Well, I chose not to have.

I am the homie type of person. I guess, being the last daughter in the family plays a major reason. I do hang out with friends, catch a movie and doing stuff. But since most of my good buddies are busy studying and working (on Saturdays), I choose to stay home.

And never count me in if any of you attempt to ask me for a stroll without a mission at the mall aka window shopping. Guys may find it a good thing but my gurlfrens find it irritating because I might show the can-u-hurry-up face when she can't ..

1 month...

Genap sudah 1 bulan kt KKM ni..
Tapi masih rase macam budak baru belajar, kalo salah tolong tunjukkan..

Anyway, selepas sebulan kat sini, a few things have never changed..
Masih tak de fail mejaor job scope..
itu ok lagi, ni kerje pun tak de..
setakat ni, baru buat 2ulasan dan 1surat, pegi SSM mintak name board of directors..

My bee oh ess ess macam reluctant nak serahkan one of the concession company under my care..
Dalam meeting, die masih ckp, "She's still new" bile ma'am tsub propose that. In the end, it is not just a proposition, it is an order whether he likes it or not, that I have to take care of that concession company.. And I can see clearly, he does not agree..

And some of the staff aren't that friendly.. Being the new staff I was hoping that someone will introduce me to those who attended the meeting. I am going to deal with them after all. Sadly, that never happened and I can see curiosity in those unfamiliar faces "Sape ler budak muda ni?PT ker?" takkan nk gi introduce diri sendri?
My toot pun never have the initiative to do that..

Dah tak tau nak olah ayat mintak kerje.. I can compile all those different phrases of "nak mintak kerje" into a book..

I am suffering in this cubic..
I am so glad that I stay at home with Ma..
Saying I love U and getting a hug from her every morning really gives me that energy with a telepathic message, "You are my daughter, you can deal with this"

Coming back home to see my loved ones, demolish away my stress..
I won't be moving out.. Home with Ma is where my heart is

I hate it when it rains..

Rain, rain go away. Come again another day...

I hate to drive on a rainy day because..

1. I have to pay more on petrol because I'm using the aircond.
(I don't use aircond while driving. To save cost obviously)

2. I get sad to see
-motorcyclists stop by the roadside to put on their rain-coat..
-motorcyclists taking shelter under the flyover..
-kereta2 lame yang takde aircond kene lap cermin..
-motor2 yang tibe2 rosak, kene sorong dalam hujan..

Bersyukurnye yaya ade kereta dan tak melalui semua ni..
Bersyukur juga yaya masih ade rase simpati bila melihat keadaan2 macam ni..

I love these guys..

My favourite cartoon..

My job

Lin has gone for her meeting and I was left here all alone again. So, to prevent me from getting asleep, I thought of writing what I wanna say in my blog.

Yesterday was my 1st day in my division. After being introduced to some of my new colleagues, we went to our cubicles. (I am the youngest in my unit, or maybe in the whole ministry along with Walter, Naz and Akis.) Sorry, no rooms for PSUs (Penolong Setiausaha). My cubic is located at the very end of the office. When I came yesterday, it's more like a "pantry cubic", there were food (biscuits, cakes, mineral water etc) on the table. I guess, some did their eating there. Nothing has changed when I showed up this morning anyway. So I placed all the food on the locker nearby. My locker is locked and I have to borrow one of Lin's locker to put my handbag and valuable stuff.

Too bad, the head of my division, SUB (Setiausaha Bahagian) wasn't in, not until next Monday. No SUB means, no confirmation of where we should be located. There are 2 vacancies; Unit Pentadbiran dan Kewangan, Pengurusan Stor dan verifikasi stok and Pemantauan and Penilaian Penswastaan.The TSUB thinks that I'm more suitable to be in Pemantauan and Penilaian Penswastaan, base on my degree. But the final decision, has to come from SUB himself.

My post was previously handled by a medical doctor and it was not even a PTD post. It has been vacancied for quite sometime so they converted it into a PTD post.There isn't any senarai tugas and my immediate boss and the TSUB have to create a new senarai tugas for my post. But I doubt he'll do it in these couple of days because he's so tied up with all the current issues about hospitals and stuff. So, for the time being, I got nothing to do.

I attended my 1st meeting yesterday. I was very sleepy through out the meeting and I had to pinched myself to stay awake. I didn't know head or tail of what they were discussing about and lots of "KKM's terms" that I don't understand.

Yesterday morning, when Lin went out with Naz and Una, I slept at my cubic. Hopefully, no one saw me. I tried my best not to be seen. I slept again this morning while Lin was busy with her claim application. There's a meeting tomorrow at 9am. No doubt, I'll sleep again after that.

My immediate boss suddenly asked me about food science stuff just now. Something to do with Nufera product and I can answer it easily. Now, I really miss doing Food Science :(

Aksi2 PTD baru KKM

Farah, Walter and a whole bunch behind there.. ;)

Akis and Yaya

Walter's asleep..Ngntuk sgt agknye sbb kne bgn awal. 2nd day, he arrived at 630 in the morning!!!

Single but not very sure they're still available (^^)/
From left:Farah, Aza, Ayu, Una, Lin

From left: Naz (yg sdg mencari superman dlm bangunan), Aza, Ayu, Farah, Yaya, Walter and Akis(kt depan)

Dunia da senget sebab lama sangat pool di lautan buku..hehehe

'Pool' in KKM

My 1st 3 days in MOH weren't so bad..On 21st of Feb, I arrived at 1430, after our meeting with KSN at INTAN Bukit Kiara. (I was half awake and half asleep through out his speech. But I still did some writing during that half conscious period.)
Followed Naz's car to Putrajaya. I tell you, this guy drive so laju... Semput2 my kenari yaya nak ikut.

We were located at the HR division.And they told us that we will get our posting letter by Friday.
*Cepatnye!!*

<----(This is my 1st ever punch-card ;) On Thursday and Friday, we stayed at the library. One of my colleague kene ngorat dengan technician lagi. There weren't much we can do there. Some took this opportunity finishing the essay, some found peace by sleeping, hehehe.. Well, in my case, sleeping wasn't an option, not sleepy at all. Essay, not in the mood. so, I read the magazines, loitering around, kacau budak2 yang tengah siapkan esei, took some pictures. The funny thing was, the 15 of us, we always moved in group.(Macam rombongan Che Kiah ke sukan Komanwel pun ade jugak. Benar2 menarik perhatian orang ramai.) Some thought that we are a bunch of new staff nurse.. (What?) Friday morning, everyone was very nervous about the posting. I know I was. What I fear most is to be sent to a hospital. Anywhere but hospital.

<----- (This is the letter I received)

Selamat keje kt HQ.Akis dapat dekat HQ cawangan KL.
Bye2 Kis..Gonna miss U!!!

For the time being, I'll be driving to and fro from Selayang.
There isn't any traffic jam at all at 630 in the morning so far ;)

Where I'm supposed to be

Bahagian Keselamatan dan Kualiti Makanan

This is where I'm suppose to be working.. Suddenly, I miss doing Food Science stuff.. :(

I've been tagged..

My sis tagged me...

Rules of the game: Each player of this game starts out by telling 6 weird things about themselves on their own blog, as well as state the rules clearly. At the end, you will need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list out their names. After you do that, leave them a comment on their blogs letting them know you tagged them.

I'm supposed to list 6 weird things about me...


1. I'm a drama junkie, tv addict..
Ma forbade me from going out with friends during my school years so that I'll study more at home.But I developed a serious illness instead.I seeked entertainment by watching tv.So now I am, once I start, I wont stop.Even when I'm not at home,I'll ask someone to record it for me.I wud like to thank my 3 older sisters for showing me how interesting watching tv is ;)
Most of the drama series I followed are Chinese, Korean and Japs. While others fall in love with muscular hunky Hollywood stars, I drool over skinny Chinese and Japs heroes.. I guess, it's in my genes.. *wink*

2. I'm not saying that I'm a very organize person, but I have this habit where I like to write dates on everything I bought, labeled plugs and sockets, put instructions and orders, arranging things according to alphabetical orders, colours, heights and sizes.
Sometimes, when I see the books are disorganize at the bookstore, I don't mind staying there and arrange them in correct order.

3. I hate to see mold on the bathroom walls.. yucks..

4. I ran away from kindergarten.
I was 5 back then.During recess, while everyone was playing, I packed my lunch box and sneaked out from my kindergarten.No one noticed but while I was running happily, there was this guy yang potong rumput tu, saw me. He chased me until I was in the house compound hiding behind the car.He called out for someone.My Ma opened the door, and he told her there was a kid running into this house.I got out from my hiding place almost crying.
My original plan was to remain outside the house and when it's time I'm supposed to b back from kindergarten, I'll be in front of the gate saying "Ma, I'm back" as if I was enjoying my time at the kindergarten.
Ma sent me back to kindergarten the next day and stayed there until my lesson ended.And also for the next 1week..ehehe..

5. While all the kids have bantal busuk or selimut busuk, I have teddy bear busuk by the name of Mimi Asmidar. Pa gave me that cute little teddy bear when I was 5.The name Asmidar was given to her because I love watching Ali Setan.Mimi is still on my bed right now.No longer busuk but she looks old.

6. I obsess with people's thighs..The 1st thing I do when I see a woman, I will say either "keciknye peha die" or "besarnye peha die" or "Peha yaya ke peha die lagi besar".. Well,mine are not proportionate with my upper part.I've exercised and nothing worked.When I have extra money to spend, I might consider going to MarieFr*nceBodyline to slim my big fat thighs. *laugh*

I'm tagging -

Munira, Adrian, Wan, Hizwani, Zyrin and Mala.

Tag, you're it!

"Saya yang menurut perintah"

Tomorrow's my big day..
My 1st day working..

The feeling I'm having now, is the same as what I had 18years ago..

The day I set foot to my 1st kindergarten..
I saw the unfamiliar faces judging me from my appearance..
My mind was busy thinking of what they thought of me..
I ran away the next day ;) But I cant run away anymore now or ask Ma to stay with me for the rest of the day.. Ehehehe

Ministry of Health, here I come..
The most controversial ministry of all..
PTDs vs Doctors..

I have to wake up early tomorrow, therefore I should sleep early. But I know I cant.I'll be restless on my bed staring at the ceiling thinking of tomorrow's outcome..
Anxious, fear and excited combine together..
I'll be waking up every 1 hour checking on the time, fear that I might wake up late..

aish....

"Cukup2 la tu berehat yaya.. It's time to move your a**" Aqish said. (She didn't exactly say that. I exaggerated a little bit.) She just called me just now to wish me good luck.Caayang Aqish!!

Ganbatte ne Yaya!!! p(^^)q
Welcome to the real world..

Selamat Pengantin Baru!!

Yaya and Yus

Yaya nak ucap Selamat Pengantin Baru kpd slh sorg psgn "Ji Jah dr Johor", Yusliana Ismail..
Yus diijabkabul hari ni n esok majlisnye..
Sayangnye tak dapat pergi tengok Yus. Nanti jangan lupe bawak gamba kawin tau ;)
Semoga berbahgia hingga akhir hayat...

Fetching moments

Yaya and "Ji Jah dari Johor" Yus and Zaini

Malaysia's Statue of Liberty

Yaya, Muni, Akis, Shikin

Akis, sedap nye makan

Muni and Yaya

What I did for the past 10 days

Pintu depan INTIM

I just got back from a 10day course for newly elected PTD's officers..I experienced a wonderful 10 days in INTAN Kemaman which I will never forget..
The course started on the 5th of Feb.So, we (Pa, Ma and I) spent a night in Kuantan a day before.

Selamat datang!

Arriving at INTAN Kemaman around 10am, seeing all the unfamiliar faces, I can feel the adrenaline rushed through my veins. All of a sudden, I felt excited to get to know all these people whom I had to spent time with for the next 10days.

Registration was simple. We had to do a psychological test later. In the comp lab, I sat next to a guy which I saw his name is Mohd Balkish.What a coincidence ;) Balkis, U'll b surprise to see the male version of your name.

Firstly, the food was luxurious. For someone who's been on the almost-Atkins diet for a month, I was ready to eat all this delicious food served for us ;) How nice I can eat Carbs again..

Muka happy dapat makan nasi

But, in the dining hall, there were people who think of no one else but themselves. No offense, but come on la, fikir logik, jangan la ambil ayam sampai 2ketul besar, pastu ambil lauk ikan plak lagi, sampai pinggan pun dah tak muat. Orang yang makan last2, dah takde lauk. Takkan la da jadi pegawai pun nak kene ajar lagi, "ambil lauk seketul sorang jer yer". Kalo during morning and tea break pun same, ambil kuih sampai 2-3ketul sorang. Be reasonable lar. 2 tu pun dikire banyak. Mase PAC, boleh je survive dengan 1 kuih. Berlakon kaw2 punya mase PAC.

It is a very sad thing to see people throwing away food. My parents always teach me to appreciate food and rezeki yang diberi Allah. Take what you knew you can finish. Membazir tu kan, tabiat syaitan. Kenapa kalau makanan dapat free mesti mahu ambil banyak2?

The activities were great. I had so much fun and I learned a lot.
The 5km run I did everyday before coming here really ddo me good. I always finished among the 10 earliest (among women) in every run we did.

For the 1st 2days, we were divided into LDK's group. There are 7 groups and I was in LDK 3 with En.Zaflin as our facilitator. A very nice person and very2 funny.

LDK 3

In this LDK group, we were divided once again into 4small groups. There were tasks where we had to compete against each other but for the last one, the task given needed to b done together all 4groups. It took us 3groups about 25minutes to figure it up. Another group had realize it earlier but was asked to remain silent. It symbolize ourselves in the working world where we work in different ministries and agencies but there will be lots of time where we actually need each other.

And then, the next two days were lectures about PTD.

On weekends, we were asked to organize 2 events, a telematch and a malam persembahan. We were divided into 10 groups this time. And I was in Group 1. I find the girls in my group were fun and amusing and I had such a nice time hanging out with them.

Group 1

Telematch. Sebelum muka penuh tepung

Owh, Saturday morning, we climbed Bukit Kemuning of 2500feet high above sea level carrying a balloon symbolizing an 'Amanah' we had to take good care of.

With my balloon

We practiced our persembahan which we decided to do a comical pantomime. Partnered with Yana, we became Mek Su from Kelantan to performed a funny dance (purposely done), on stage. Something I never though I would do in this life..We managed to get 3rd place for persembahan and telematch ;)

On Monday, the lectures continued for another 2 days.And then, another event management. This time, I took part in choir. I always like to sing but I know I have no talent at all *laugh*.

That night, the organizers almost fooled us. They said, there were 12 officers failed in their psychological test and were told to return home. And I saw this very tall guy among the 12, he looked very panic and almost down to tears. Damn, this cant be real. Pity them.

Well, the actual thing was, they were born in Feb and Nazri (one the the members in Group 1) was born on that day, Feb 14th. The organizer brought out a cake later.

Schweeeeeeeeeeeeet ;) I almost cry, I repeat ALMOST cry because I was closed to a few people in that 12 people they claim to have 'failed' their tests.

The next day was hari penentu. I was 80% sure I will get posted to Ministry Of Health. When my name was called out my name and the Ministry I got posted to, dah agak dah dalam hati..

Balkis got posted to MOH too. Panjangg plak jodoh Yaya dgn Akis ;) Akis, Yaya, Ganbatte!!!
p(^^)q

In this 10day course, sometimes I felt like I was treated like a kid by others. Not by the facis but by some of the participants. No offense but some treated me like I knew nothing about anything.

Born in year 84 is the youngest among 257 of us. Yes I am the youngest, I did my degree in health base that has nothing to do with management and I have no working experience except for my almost-3months practical training in a food manufacturing company. But that doesn't make me totally clueless about the real world.I have a father who worked in the govt sector his whole life and a mother who worked in the private sector. Both of them always told me the ugly part of each sector, not to make me scared but to make me ready to face it. I read, I observed and I listened.

Again, no offense, you may be older, but that does not mean that u are wiser. I know I still have lots to learn. But for that people who think that they know everything, sometimes you need to listen to people around you. You are not as superior as you think you are

Anyway, when I went home, I was surprise my weight dropped by 3kg.. Yippee.....

Berkat mandi before kul6 and bersenam di pagi hari dengan en.Ramli ;)