It has been that old. 2 and a half years.
A friend of mine who got married 1 week after us is now a mother of 2 beautiful kids.
We were watching Gemersik Kalbu (yeah, we don't have astro so this is my entertainment ;) and during the commercial break.
Me: Why doesn't God bless us with a child yet?
Husband: He wants us to move in to our house first. If you're pregnant, then I have to do all the cleaning, that's not fair, right, right?
Me: pffftttt.. Maybe God knows we're not ready to be parents? Tell me, you're not ready to be a dad, are you?
Husband: I'm ready when it's time to be.
Me: Maybe I'm the one whose not ready?
Then I told him my feelings when my period was late for 4 days last month, how I was feeling nervous thinking about labour pain even before anything was confirmed. Crazy. (Blame it on my tuition biology teacher who showed us a video of how Cesarean was performed, I was merely 18!!!)
He just laughed at it as if I was telling a silly joke.
Honestly, I don't think about it too much anymore. People are blessed with so many great things in life. Not having kids doesn't mean that my life is incomplete. I still keep that long text from kuntum when I miscarried last year.
And Ma always said, be happy with what you own and don't be stressed out on things you didn't have.
Anyway, to Niha and Rezal, Congratulations and may she grows up to be a good muslimah :)
That's soooo true dear...HE knows best...just enjoy every moment being together n the freedom u have to go places n do things mommies n daddies cant do :-) every cloud has a silver lining...God works in mysterious way...
ReplyDeleteTake care!!!
there is nothing else that i can say to comfort you other than, bersabarlah. sesungguhnya orang-orang yang bersabar itu mendapat tempat paling istimewa dalam syurga. and i know how cliche this is, and to a point, it is pretty annoying because why am i pointing out the obvious, but i think sometimes, we forgot about the other blessings in life that God has bestowed us.
ReplyDeletethere are people who doesn't have real friends, but you do. there are people who have children but not a husband, but you have (and a great one too!). there are people who have a family, but wishing they don't because the husbands hit them, the children left them all alone etc. i mean, banyak lah.
so be thankful for all the good and not so good things God has given you. the good things to humble you. and the not so good things to remind you. in the end, Allah is all you NEED.
take care.
Kak Shireen and Mala:
ReplyDeleteYes, people tend to forget easily on the things they have when they always focus on the things they don't have. And I'm trying not to be one of them. Thank you guys and take care too. Hugs and kisses.. :)
insya allah...ada rezeki nanti...
ReplyDeleteinsyaAllah :)
ReplyDeleteInsyaallah, ada rezeki nanti... Yang dulu tu dah tunggu ko di pintu syurga :)
ReplyDeleteInsyaAllah..
ReplyDeleteHope you're doing ok.
Dah dekat dengan EDD kan? :)
Yaya, thank you for the well wishes.
ReplyDeleteAmna keeps reminding me of you. Yela mata sepet macam tu mmg teringat kat ko la kan, except dia tak secerah ko. Hehehe...
Being a mother makes me appreciate my mother more. Betapa jerih payah ibu mengandungkan kita, melahirkan, berjaga malam etc... Allah je mampu balas semua tu.
Allah knows best. Allah akan berikan yg lebih baik. Even aku yg baru jd ibu ni pun tak pasti aku mampu menggalas amanah tu dengan sebaiknya atau tak. Dont give up ye yaya... Aku selalu doakan kebahagian kawan2 aku.
Tunggu aku balik ye. Aku nak sgt Amna kenal dgn Aunty Yaya :-)
yaya:
ReplyDeleteslmt hari ulangtahun perkahwinan
hang dgn abg wan :)
jap je dh 2 thn stgh,
rs mcm br smlm aku g wedding hangpa..hehe
Niha: Cant wait to see Amna too :)
ReplyDeleteRyo: Thank you.. Tu la kan, kejap je dah nak masuk 3 tahun. Tunggu nak pergi kenduri kau je nih ;)