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I'm not proud of what I did just now.
The nasi lemak with ayam goreng berempah was so irresistable. I took a small plate of it, ate with no regret.
When the tummy said, "cukup2 ar tu" after a cup of coffee, regrets creeping inside..
Why did I eat that nasi lemak when lunch was in 1 hour... I'm having lunch at home with Joe and he will make sure I have my lunch...
Nyesal-nyesal...
The psychological effect was just too great to resist, the tummy didnt feel that nice, I was feeling dizzy. So I went to the toilet, stucked my middle finger inside the throat and blugrh...
This is the 2nd time this week..
Not good, not good..
I know it's not healthy and people with this syndrome may get cavities easier compare to normal people. I hate that fact because I love my teeth. I take really good care of them.
But I cant deny that part of me do feel good when I forced these fatty food out of my system.
Imagine when you cant control your hunger, you binged. Remorsed. Threw up and tadaaa, you didnt feel hungry anymore.. Satisfaction guaranteed..
Seriously, I felt full eventhough there's nothing inside my tummy.
And I know, it's a waste of food. Better off give that protion I ate to someone who really needs it.
*sigh*
Esok puase...ganti :D (Lagi sebulan setengah nak Ramadhan beb)
yaya~!!! first of all, i miss all you updating your blog! :D
ReplyDeletesecondly, binge eating is actually normal. sometimes you can't resist the food and end up eating it, then feeling regretful later. here's how to control your sugar level (and cholesterol), from what i read in a health magazine. it is proven that people who have daily intake of a tablespoon of apple vinegar in the morning will have lower sugar level at the end of the day.
worry not yaya, aku pun makan banyak jugakkkk...nak elak makan banyak senang je..before amkan tu minum air banyak2, or juice. you know better than me kan ;)
take care yaya! :D
akkakkk!! nak kena babap ek? sapa ajar binge eating ni? just makan je la and sapu minyak! hish! ni abang joe tau mesti marah ni. prof salam tau mesti lagi marah!! teehee
ReplyDeleteis that bulimia? like you eat, and then you throw up? i'm not very good at all these health stuff. so do pardon my lack of knowledge on this.
ReplyDeletewell, keep on updating :)
haiyoooo...
ReplyDeletebulimia???
yaya dont...
jogging tetiap pagi...cam aku...eventho aku makan banyak...still takder ler kembang semangkok...hahaha...so do it the healthy way...makan..then excercise...thats it...tapi paling senang is jangan makan lepas maghrib...
eh, bukan ke ini dah masuk kategori bulimia ke? jgn yaya..menyusahkan ko je..ape kata ko pegi kinokuniya, ko amik buku 'skinny bitch' and ko baca. mungkin buku ni dapat tolong ko..kan?
ReplyDeleteNiha: Akak aku memang amalkan amik apple cider and it works. Aku pun nak try. I'm willing to do anything.
ReplyDeleteNawal: Ahahahaha, bakal pengantin takleh babab orang ar, darah manis :p Prof salam tu sumer mende die makan. He's a food lover.
Mala: A'ah. This is the syndrome. Yg kronik tu every meal die muntah. Aku cuma muntah yg aku rase makanan tu aku tak sepatutnya makan. seminggu 3-4kali..ooopppsss
Mal: Badan aku maintain sekarang but takleh shed weight not even a kg. I eat less, regular exercise but nothing. Frust T____T
Una: Tau, tau tak elok :)
Akak aku pun soh cari buku losing weight for lazy gurls ke ape entah. Buku tu ajar tricks nak kuruskan badan without having to force ourselves to do exercise