The first step #3

Meeting the doctor for the first time is kinda relieved.. A really big relieved to know that both of us are healthy and normal. Alhamdulillah.. (Oh yes, I received the I-told-you-so look from the husband as usual ;)

Since I have a big meeting to organise in April that might clashed with the IUI procedure, we decided to proceed with the medication first; the clomid and gonal-f..


to be continued...

Happy

(Posting entry at the speed of light)

This is the view from my office room.

Oh yes, the nursery's playground.

Everyday, around 11am, the kids are allowed to play. I can hear them shouting and screaming happily. I can sit by the window and watch the cute little people play until they are once again in the nursery.



Oh, where's my own little people...

Sale

(Posting entry at the speed of light)

Who's in need of a new pair of jeans?

Me, me!! [giving hint]

What are you waiting for, Levi's Warehouse Sale will be on for 4 days.


Grab your man (with cash or credit card), ask him to start the engine and drive you to:

(click for bigger view)

Oh, it's April again. I'll be twenty seven in less than 2 weeks but I've already bought myself a gift yesterday which cost me no-more-favourite-domino's pizza for a year and received the early birthday gift from him too..

However, I'm so in need of a new pair because the one I have now which was bought in 2002 dah koyak. (Itu pun brand cap ayam je. Oh my, I never had a Levi's in my whole life)
[hinting again and batting eyelashes rapidly]

Ok, ok, I'll stop giving hint and the eyelashes thing.. hahahaha, because it never works..

Back to work...

Blessed

Woke up at 5.30 feeling all cheery for no reason. Oh wait, did I receive good news yesterday? hihihi

Ditched my plan to do some light exercise but stuck in front of the lappie instead.

An hour later, woke him up and suddenly felt like eating homemade pasta. He did the bed like always and I returned to the kitchen.

In less than 30 minutes later,

Spicy fried rotini pasta with chicken, fresh tomato and capsicum in my cute orange tupperware and a glimpse of him on my table.

I definitely can join Kan Cheong Kitchen. hehe..

We can't get everything we want but our lives have been so far, the greatest.. Alhamdulillah..

Itadakimasu and let's work hard like the Japanese.

News

1st: Good news.

No, I'm not pregnant.. (yet)..

It's not exactly on the 4th year, but we received the news 4 years, 2 months and 1 week later.. Alhamdulillah..

We will gather once again next Monday to received, errrr, ehem.. and I can't wait to re-plan my budget. hihi

Oh my, what should I wear that'll make me look slimmer.. hehehe.. And owh the zits, I hope the skin will behave nicely next week.. I definitely want to look nice because we'll be taking lots of pictures like we always do when we reunite.

2nd: the not so good news, 'it' came today. So, the next appointment is schedule tomorrow afternoon at 2. We'll be meeting the doc for the first time. Mixed feelings since this morning...... And silly me, I left my appointment card at mom's house. Aduh. No choice but to rush back home 1st before heading back to LPPKN.. Why la, I'm getting forgetful these days?

Anyway, if anyone saw a couple, one wearing purple batik and the other in blue batik near Jalan Raja Laut, we are not mengulat-ing tau..

Secretary

Oh, here comes Secretary's Week and Anuar Zain and this:


Which I received every year since 3 years ago.

An Assistant Secretary is not a secretary.

But I don't mind going to this kind of workshop if the head department is paying..

Click to enlarge

Menarikla kandungan kursus..

Lepas tu, Nasir Wahab? Cabutan bertuah emas 916?? DOOR GIFT Beg Tangan atau Perfume atau Jam Tangan?

Wish

Nice picture isn't it? And if only the boy in pink is ours.

That's Adam. Kak Lin's son. An adorable kid. He likes Wan so much during our 2N2D stay at Kak Lin's house in Kuching. Stick to Wan like glue and he even slept on cuddling Wan in the car on our way to the airport. It's such a wonderful view watching Wan with kid(s).

Oh, I wish...

Done

Last Thursday was spent productively..

Morning, hit the road at 7am from mom's house in Selayang and arrived at LPPKN 1 1/2 hour later. Massive traffic jam, bumper to bumper all the way. Aduhai Jalan Kuching..
Procedure to take blood sample, 5 mins..
Parking ticket: RM2.50

Had breakfast at Bangunan Mara at 9am and noticed that there are still soooooooooooo many of them wearing baju batik having the time of their lives sipping teh tarik.. Woi, korang ni tak malu ke ape???!!!
J*A, please take note.

Went to Abah's house to take Wan's home theater and replaced with another model: It took us 2 1/2 hours.. But yay, home theater. Every night will be a movie night, no?

Hit the road again at 12.15 to Shah Alam to collect our kad nikah.. Arrived a few mins to 1. Since the office is closed for lunch break, we decided to have our lunch at SACC Mall. It's like a dead mall. Sangat sikit manusia.

We had our lunch at Palma Cafe Malaysian Bistro next to Big Apple. The meals are quite expensive and our table smelt like cockroach. Wan had nasi kerabu and mine was nasi goreng palma.

Tasty Nasi Kerabu at RM8.90

My Nasi Goreng at RM9.90 was not up to my expectation. (Sorry no picture) It has 1 sunny side up egg, small-hard-to-bite fried chicken wing together with the pale taste fried rice.

We saw something funny on the menu too.


Ice tea is RM3 and Teh Ais is RM3.50. I just have to ask the waiter the difference between those two and he explained that Ice Tea is actually Teh 'O' Ais.. Ooooooooooo
No 6% Govt Tax but it has 10% Service Charge

On the way back to the car, saw Did*e Alias. This time, she has white colour fringe. Weird..

The parking rate is, RM1.50 for the first hour and RM1 for the subsequent hours.

Collect our nikah kad at JAIS.. Yay, no more folded nikah cert in my wallet. And they returned the pictures that we gave when submitting the form. Jimat gambar


And hey lady at the counter, can you at least smile back. I did nothing wrong to deserve such treatment.


Later, we rushed back to EPF Bangi to settle up the, ehem.. The procedure took us less than 10 minutes. weeee... We didn't know that the cap jari thing has to be done in front of the EPF staff. You know how struggle I tried to get a perfect thumb print on the paper using blck stamp pad???!! hahahaha..


Finally, arrived home exhausted at quarter to 5pm.. Still managed to cook a simple dinner and watched The Longest Yard. The sub-woofer, marvelous! (Oh where's my Winter Sonata VCD :)


Anyway, how many times do we actually take leave and just stay at home doing nothing? Because most of my annual leave were spent settling things that can't be done during the weekends.. *yawn*

Oh May, please come faster :)

Claim

Blog ini bukan blog TTC. Ianya adalah catatan perjalanan hidup, tapi memandangkan ini isu utama dalam hidup setakat ini, macam banyak pulak pasal TTC. hehehe..

Saya telah diberitahu bahawa penjawat awam boleh memohon tuntutan bayaran rawatan untuk infertiliti (atau bahasa tak berapa best dia, rawatan kemandulan) dengan Kerajaan sekiranya rawatan tersebut dilaksanakan di hospital / klinik kerajaan atau di LPPKN.

Maka, sebelum menghubungi rakan2 di jabatan berkenaan, saya telah gugel dan menjumpai ini:

Pekeliling Perkhidmatan Bilangan 21 Tahun 2009

Boleh terus ke mukasurat (PDF) 8 dan 59.

Apa itu primary infertility?

boleh gugel sendiri.. hehehe.. Tapi secara ringkasnya adalah ini atau nak baca panjang sikit ini.. Kalau tak cukup lagi, boleh gugel banyak2 lagi..

PP ini sangat umum, nampaknya perlu call untuk pertanyaan lanjut atau sesiapa yang dah pernah buat tuntutan, telah dapat maklumat extra dari J*A, boleh tinggalkan komen or link kan blog mana yang ada cerita prosedur dan had tuntutan ini. Tq :)

21st day

Another appointment tomorrow. I'm taking a day leave again. Need to settle a few things which includes collecting our kad nikah at Shah Alam.. Hehehe, tak senonoh. Married for 20 months tapi baru nak pergi ambil kad yang baru dibuat bulan Februari lepas.

So sorry dear colleagues, I'm using up my 40day leave to the max this year. hehe..

I've been very2 sensitive for the past weeks since the check-up. Especially when the husband's result turned out normal and I couldn't help thinking whether if it's me..

I felt so imperfect in every way.

Last week, husband said a simple sentence, "a beautiful lady came to my office", and I was sulking all the way back home from pasar malam.

And many more incidents which I refused to recall because I was such a cry baby.

Poor guy..

What have I become?

Sulking and crying won't solve a thing right?

Maggie Delivery At Your Doorstep..

I'm a lazy bum. With the weather now (which is scorching hot all the time plus I'm the type that sweats a lot), I rather stay indoor and try to settle everything by clicking away..

The bills, credit card, fund transfer, prepaid reload for mom, shopping, etc, all are done online.

So I was browsing for websites that provide chocolate delivery services. (Not the handmade one, I don't like compound chocolate and theirs are not cheap either). I don't need the fancy wrapper with ribbons, I just want the stuff to be delivered by somebody else and I don't care if it's delivered in pasar malam plastic bags.

Therefore, I googled for words such as chocolate/cookies-delivery-Malaysia, and I found this.. Walla, I can choose the type of chocolate that I want and it's considered cheap (compares to other delivery websites) because I don't have to pay for the fancy cards, wrappers, box, mini teddy bear and other irrelevant accessories.

The help service is very efficient too. Emailed them about my problem regarding their website and they call back within 2 hours. Friendly pulak tu.. I've heard of doorstep.com.my a few times in the radio but I couldn't recall the exact url but now it sticks permanently in my head. Yay..

p/s: Did you know that Famous Amos charges RM35 for delivery to Putrajaya?? Gile mahal. Barang yang order lagi murah dari kos penghantaran. Terus cancel..

Farewell

Last month, I learned that:

If you're leaving an organisation as a boss, you can do either one of these:

1. Since you are leaving and maybe won't be seeing the staff anymore in your entire life, you can let bygones be bygones. Give your words of wisdom to your going-to-be-your-ex-subordinates before you leave. Forgive and forget because life is just too short to be vengeful.

OR

2. You can call for a meeting and condemn everyone. Spill every little unsatisfying feeling you felt for the past years towards everyone and leave without bidding goodbye on the last day.

What's your choice??

I'm a mom..

Controversial title isn't it. Hehehe

Niece Hannah and Nephew Hariz.

These are my kids. Hehehe

Followed my parents to a relative's wedding reception at Majlis Perbandaran Nilai last Sunday. Brought these two mischievous kids along since their mom is so far away posted in Borneo. So, while helping Hannah with her food, someone said, "Anak akak ni macam cina, putih"..

Haha..

Didn't remember whether I corrected her. But Hannah kept on calling me Mak Su, so I think she should've known the truth by then :)

His business trip...

...my mini holiday. :)

Here I am in my room, waiting for Wan. It was raining this morning. Wan woke up at 5.30 for last minute touch-up for today's meeting, he only slept for 4 hours.

Ditched my plan for a stroll at the mall and stayed in the room after breakfast.

The breakfast is ok; many choices but the sambal nasi lemak is very2 spicy.

We stayed here:

The Zenith Hotel Kuantan

It has limited basement parking space shared with the new international convention centre. At the moment, the parking is free.

The spacious main lobby

East Coast Mall is just across the street.

Can't go up without the card

Deluxe Room, Govt rate at RM261

Mini Folder on Hotel's Information and Directory

Refuse to go to the meeting

We hardly see this anymore.. Hehehe.. Habis siaran at 12am

Shower and Bath Tub. The shower gel smells like Wan's car freshener.

Complete with weighing scale and face mirror

Bath-robe, slippers, iron, safety box, hairdryer and torch-light

Not the ordinary plastic bag

The Mini Bar

I miss the traditional metal tea-spoons

The charming husband

And the girl who came with him

I threw this little bug out of the room last night but only to find it slept in one of my shoes this morning. I was half shrieking.

Helping him while he attended his night meeting

Yay, finished

Good night

So, where's your next business trip darling?? hehehe

Free

Organizing meetings or courses outstation is very tiring indeed. Especially when it involves the top people.

However, I'll make sure I bring back this:


to refill my refreshments at the office.. hehehe

Tag along

I love to tag along Wan to his outstation meetings.

Last December was Alor Setar and we stayed at Holiday Villa.

Standard room.

Toilet with bath tub

The mini bar.

The view from our room

The room is clean, no strains of hair on the carpet, no mold on the bathroom wall, received a copy of newspaper in the morning however, the heater was not consistent (sometimes it suddenly became extremely hot).

The first meeting will start in the night at 9pm, so we took our time to walk around Alor Star. There's a shopping complex next to Holiday Villa, (err, actually both are in the same building), but the shopping complex is more or less like Warta Bangi without Guardian and supermarket. Yes, no supermarket. You have to walk to 7-E across the street to get yourself something to munch.

Pekan Rabu

Shops selling Haj stuff and tudungs

Jejantas with escalator. Later was told by Shidi that people refused to use the jejantas before the escalator was built. But you can see Malaysian are very degil.

There's nothing much to see. Bought a few bottles of kuah rojak. Shidi (Wan's bestfriend during DPA) is coming to Alor Star too that night after his meeting because he had another meeting the next day, but both finished late so I had dozed off waiting for them for the late supper.

So we decided to meet up the next day after their meetings.

Checked-out at 12pm. Shidi's still in the meeting.

Went to the tower, unfortunately it is under construction.

Us

Dirty

Uncivilised

Invisible bench

No kissing ok

Shidi came 1 1/2 hour later. Huhuhu. He treated us lunch and had a chat for a while before he had to dash to his brother's nikah ceremony. A very busy man indeed. His staff even came all the way from Sg. Petani for him to sign last minute payment vouchers during our lunch.

Bid goodbye and took off at 2pm++. Arrived home exhausted at 10pm.. Massive traffic jam because it was raining heavily.

So, who are we meeting in Kuantan tomorrow? :)

Anxious

Waved Mr.Husband goodbye at the door and continued golek2 on the bed..

I was given MC today.

Done with HSG just now. Read the diagnosis and told my sister about it. Me not like what I heard.

Try not to think about it at the moment and took 2 days leave to follow Wan to Kuantan for meetings tomorrow. We'll be staying at Zenith Kuantan. heee..

LPPKN referred me to do HSG at Daya X-ray Centre, located at Bangunan DBKL. The clinic is err, old. The equipments are old too plus the doctor. Hehe, no offense :) The girl who did it before me looked sick and pale when she went out of the room. It made me feel very uneasy. But I kept thinking that labour pain will be so much worst than this and of course, Wan continuously trying to make me calm. hee

So, at the end, it was ok for me. The procedure only took not more than 5 minutes. Felt a bit nauseous during the procedure but much better when it finished. Later after that, just a little bit uncomfortable similar to period pain.

The effect differs from one person to another, so bring along your husband or a friend to accompany you. And don't forget, a sanitary pad, just in case the clinic doesn't provide you with one.

HSG alone costs us RM190.

Next appointment, 7th April..

Ok, sleep time.. :)

p/s: The girl at the counter was not friendly and garang a bit...

The first step #2

Ok, here's the story related to this entry.
We went to our first appointment at LPPKN last Monday. Some suggested other well-known doctors, but I think LPPKN should be ok for medical check-up. Later, if we needed treatment, then we'll widen our options.

Here, I'll share with you what I've been through, step by step.

I made a call to LPPKN in January 2011. The nurse told me the procedures and the correct time to do tests. So, she told me that the wife needs to be in her 2nd-5th day of menses and the husband should be within 3-5 days after intercourse. Both husband and wife must come on the same day, so plan well.

On the first day of menses, I made a call to LPPKN to set date for appointment.

Semen analysis (SA) was done on the day of the appointment. While waiting for the result, the nurse interviewed us for medical history, life background, etc.

The result for SA turned out normal. Alhamdulillah, that's a good start eh? (I'm ok because it's ok however, I'm not ok because my test might not be ok). So, the next tests are on the wife. Blood samples were taken from both Wan and I for STD tests and mine has extra test for hormone level. We will know the result during our session with our doctor.

Here are the cost for today's tests:
Consultation fee: RM40
Semen Analysis: RM50
Ujian Follicle-stimulating hormone (FSH), Luteinizing hormone (LH) dan Progesterone (P4): RM54
STD (husband & wife): RM56.

I will have to do HSG on the 11th day of menses cycle.

On the 21st day of menses cycle, another blood test need to be done to check whether my uterus is strong enough for pregnancy.

After all tests completed, we'll have a session with the doctor. He'll tell us about the result and the solutions available.

So, my HSG is scheduled on next Monday morning.

At the moment, I don't want to think much about what I'm going through right now (but still a little bit worried :). Que sera sera.. Whatever will be will be. From there, we'll think of the next step.

You can do all these tests at public hospitals. But we're very impatient. We don't want to wait for the long queue to get an appointment. We saved our money and did it at other institution.

LPPKN is semi private. The clinic is very comfortable. There were only 2 couples that day, us and this Indian couple. That Indian couple has only been married less than a year and they've already sought for answers.

I am a strong believer that Islam thought us to seek for solutions before we leave it to fate to decide.

I know, it is a very, very huge step to actually decide to do this. Some of us fear that the result may somehow affect the life they lead right now. But for how long do you want to live in question marks? Age isn't getting any younger.

If you're having the same problem, I suggest you to discuss the issue with the husband. I believe, you can't never run away from this matter as long as you're married. Do not wait until it's too late and please watch Giuliana and Bill.. hehe

Well, that is my opinion about this. Some may not agree and I respect that.

Pray for us eh :)

Satisfied

Ah, I like the smell of leather.

*giggle*
I was given an early birthday gift. I'm so fond of it, no, I love it so much. It's the one I've been looking for.

Last weekend, we went searching for the one that suits my taste, for 2 days. The first day, we walked from shop to shop for 3 hours non-stop. haha. Imagine the calories I burnt. It was a really good exercise. On the next day, the Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa day, I already knew where to looked at, so it took us less that 15 minutes to choose and pay. Finally, it's in my hand. Big thanks to this friend who told us where to find it. And not forget, to the one who paid for it. Muah, muah..

I went to watch HMM with Brother Wan and Husband Wan. (Hehe, that sounded so weird). Bro Wan on the right, Husband Wan on the left.

Overall, the movie is good. Thumbs up for KRU Pictures. However, I couldn't stop laughing when I heard the left person whispering Chubaka and the right saying Gandalf when R*him R*zali appeared. What's with the odd looking hair? On the other hand, after giving much thought, I think the mirror laser thing is ok. Hikayat means, it can have a little bit dongeng it in, right?

Happy viewing to those who have not :)

Tears

4.00 am

Saya tak dapat nak menahan air mata bila membaca tulisan ini. Sedihnya sehingga berjuraian. Tidak dapat nak membayangkan sekiranya saya berada di tempatnya.

Lalu saya menoleh melihat suami yang sedang nyenyak tidur. Sayangnya yang terhingga pada abg tahu. Tak dapat nak bayangkan hidup saya tanpa abang.

Sayangilah orang kesayangan ketika mereka masih ada. Don't take for granted because tomorrow may never comes. Sesungguhnya, tiada apa yang lebih dekat dengan kita selain ajal.

Al-fatihah untuk arwah dan semoga isterinya tabah menghadapi dugaan besar ini..

What if

The meeting has ended. But forgive me, I couldn't concentrate on work.

The thing we are about to face today at 2 might or might not change us. Yesterday, I asked Wan, what if the opposite happens, will we be the same as before? Can we act like we knew nothing about it? Will we continuously be worried of what the future hold for us?

Women. They can't stop thinking, can they?

Men, being men, whether they are a bunch of amazing actors (on hiding their feelings) or they are actually very positive about everything.

Wan is very calm but I'm not.

I've to write this for future records.

because the result might be life changing...

*

*


or not.

Mixed feelings

The appointment is set on Monday..

All of a sudden, I'm feeling nervous and anxious at the same time...

This is about him..

I grew up watching my guy classmates skipped cleaning activity just because they are men. Whenever you did the duty rosters, men were given the easiest work like throwing the rubbish. If you put their names in the sweeping floor section, haram they will do it. Just look at their desks or how they arranged their books in their bags, you'll know what sort of person they are.

So, I have set my mind that men are lazy. Only one out of thousands of normal men may be rajin a bit. the chances of I'm meeting any of them are less than 0.0000002% because I don't have that many guy friends.

I have this girlfriend who refuses to get married because she thinks marriage means double house-works and double head-ache. Why burden herself on such things when life as single is less stressful. Partly, I don't agree with her. However, being what I used to be, I agreed that marriage means the wife has to do the extra work.

Well, that was before..

Then, I got married. Sab gave me this book, The Ideal Muslimah. Which was written in such a way that I wanted to be an ideal muslimah like right now. Menjadi seorang wanita itu, mendapat pahala mudah, mendapat dosa juga mudah.

I went for this ceramah and this ustaz told us that kerja2 rumah hanya jatuh hukum wajib bila suami suruh. Tapi membuat DENGAN IKHLAS tanpa disuruh akan mendapat pahala berlipat ganda. But how many of you actually did it without having your heart felt a little bit angry at your man whom happily stretching out his leg on the sofa watching tv while you are doing house works from dawn till dusk??

I know I can't..

I'm such a fragile human being. I have sensitive skin therefore I can't do too many washing, I'm allergic to dusk, I have troubled knee that prevented me from standing too long, and many moreeee...

But Allah is great and He does answer your prayer. Alhamdulillah, I have the best lifetime housemate. I can't stop thanking Him and feeling grateful for giving me such person and I pray hard that this will last forever.

I know that I have only been married for merely 2 years. Some say this is the honeymoon year and everything still looks so great. For us, the first 10 months was the toughest. We quarreled a lot like a lot. We thought courting for 2 1/2 years before we tied the knot is sufficient enough to actually know each other.
Well, we thought we have..

The truth is, the good and the ugly came later when we started living together, both the man and wife. Then the communicating, accepting and adapting process took place after the 10 months I told you about. And life started to feel beautiful again.

Anyway, he's the best housemate ever. (I think I've mentioned it twice :) I don't iron our clothes or do the bed (which is his part), I can dump the clean laundry on the floor or just leave the dirty dishes in the sink whenever I don't feel like doing it (note: Not all the time, sometimes) and Alhamdulillah, he'll do it without having me to leave a sticky note on the fridge.

I'm not the best cook, but every time I cook, he eats silently and words like "tak sedap", "masinnya", "pedasnya" never blurts out from his mouth. He always repeated "Mak cakap, bila orang masak, jangan cakap banyak. Makan je. Memasak tu penat." and everytime he said that, I wish I got the chance to know this wonderful woman who brought up such a great man.

For 19 consecutive months, I've been nothing but a spoilt wife.. Blame it on the guy in this picture.......... hehehehe


I planned to post this entry on his birthday. However, it slipped my mind..

It's 18th March, Happy 32.12th birthday abang.. hehe

Worth-it

Beautiful picture frame is to frame a nice picture like this

(or is it just me that thinks that it is a nice one? haha.. ok, you can ignore my words before the image)

I asked Wan to put that frame at his office, for "security" purposes. Hehe.

What is it about some men being scared or refused to put the picture of the wife or the kids at their workplace and later when the wife brought up the matter, they will come out with cheesy words like, "I already place your picture in my heart"...

Budgeting

I started doing my own budgeting since matriculation. Starting that year, my parents no longer provided me with pocket money. I have no choice but to be very particular with my expenses. Matriculation students were given RM1K for 2 semesters from the G. I bought my first ever handphone with that money, hehe. Amazingly, I managed to survive with the money given and still had a small sum that I carried forward during my degree.

Alhamdulillah later I managed to get myself a scholarship. Even though it wasn't much, I'm grateful enough. Then I got myself a stable job immediately after I graduated. A few years after that, I got married.

And marriage means sharing, err, the expenses. Since both of us work in the same scheme, we knew well how much we received every month. Anyway, before we tied the knot, we never actually sat down and detailed out the expenses; what he should pay and which part is mine.

After 19 months, Wan still insists on paying for everything. I can be the take-for-granted wife and let him be but I just couldn't. So we split the expenses accordingly.

I've planned my monthly budget for a year and the important thing is the monthly fixed expenses.


Every month, I tried the best not to overspend and I can only splurge on something else if I have extras after deducting the fixed expenses. Since we are about to strike one of our 2011 plans, we can't help it but to be a bit more strict with the money.

Anyway, we do hope that our family and friends will not misunderstood that when we decline a get together trip, a karaoke session, etc, it's not that we don't want to but our hands are all tied up on the budget.. huhu

Western

The wife will jump in joy when the husband said he wants western food for dinner. Easy peasy like this:

Home-made coleslaw, burger and scramble eggs..

Having this once in a week should be okay right?

Wan has his twice a week badminton session and I, errr, almost once a week aerobic session.. haha