Miss my anak2 buah..

In 30mins, the clock'll strike 12.. Welcome 2009, gudbye 2008.. As usual, I'm at home, alone in front of the TV. Ma's asleep, Pa is reading like always in his room and Bro Pian went out to stay overnite at his friend's house. I think Wan is asleep too.

I'm just a bit lonely. The house feel so empty. I remember the 1st time we moved in here. I was 7. The house filled with noise and laughter. Bro Wan was merely 1 year old. The siblings talked, laughed, fought and yelled. And one by one leaving the house except me.

A few months before DPA, Niece Hannah and Nephew Hariz stayed with us because their mom went to UK to settle down 1st. Haris was so playful and energetic, we had to 'cage' him in the playpen. Hannah was forever watching Ceria day in day out. I can even memorize The Geng Bas Sekolah song because she watched the same episode all week. I fought with her when I didn't have the chance to watch my fave CSIs. She even hid the Astro remote inside the refrigerator and pretended that she didn't know where it was in order no one can change the channel.

Nephew Shaqil is always the gentle one. A big different from Hariz. Hariz even bullied him (toddler's way) when they stayed too close together. The nice Shaqil is now in Sidney. And I have no anak buah to play with..

Cant wait to see them this August.

Hannah speaks English with the slang. Hariz still speaks Hitler's language. Even Shaqil is learning more words than his cousin Hariz. I really miss them.. I miss my sisters too.. I even miss Bro Wan already..

Hannah enjoying her KFC

One of her odd expression when one is taking her pic

Hariz hidung kembang

Hariz buat adegan stunt.

Shaqeel dengan baju shark

Shaqeel at his home in Sydney with his toys

What do u think..

Ma dah mula bising sikit sebab saya tak menunjukkan sebarang perancangan perkahwinan..
"Ingat 8 bulan tu lame ker huh", terdengar suara2 mereka yang baru abis majlis kahwin. inai kat kuku pun pekat lagi..

So, I did a little research for wedding cards. Visited this website. We thought the cards are quite economical and nice. Until we stumbled into this website. For the price of less than RM1 per piece, we came across some nice cards. Here are some of it.

Choice 1

Choice 2

Choice 3

Choice 4

We prefer either choice 1 or choice 2..
I like Choice 4.. It looks different from ordinary wedding cards. But the space is limited. So Choice 4 isn't a choice at all. hehe

I read a chat forum about wedding cards. Most of them agreed that RM2-RM4 for wedding card is very cheap. I mean, their intonations were liked
"Rm2 only!!! That's very cheap man!!"

Call me a cheapskate, but I think RM2 for wedding cards is just too expensive. If you are inviting 1000 people, meaning it's RM2K for wedding cards only. Anyway, do you keep those wedding cards you received? I know I didn't. Once attended, I put the card in between the old newspaper stacks. Well, I guess money isn't a concern for rich, wealthy people. It's affordable for them.

Sis Yana asked me to check out this website regarding doorgifts. Tetriss Glass tu cute kan? Sis Yana nak sponsor ker? hehe.. Some people go all out about wedding doorgifts. I want something simple that the guests can use it and not just toss it away after attended the reception. Simple, nice yet economical. Any ideas?

~Mengukur baju di badan sendri..

RM20 per movie?

Persatuan Pengeluar Filem Malaysia mencadangkan agar harga tiket wayang Hollywood dinaikkan kepada RM20. Mereka seakan menyalahkan harga tiket yang sama bagi filem tempatan dan filem luar menyebabkan pengguna memilih filem luar.

Bagi saya tak boleh nak salahkan pengguna. Jika filem Malaysia tu baik produksinya, pengguna tidak ragu2 memilih cerita tersebut. Sepanjang hidup saya, saya baru menonton 3 filem Malaysia di wayang: Perempuan Melayu Terakhir, Puteri Gunung Ledang dan Jangan Pandang Belakang. Dan ada filem2 best yang saya tak sempat nak tonton di wayang seperti Qaisy&Laila dan Sepi. Saya bukan anti filem Malaysia tapi filem M'sia kerap kali mengecewakan saya..

Pada satu ketika dulu, saya lebih suka membeli VCD (original tau) dan menonton bersama keluarga. Tetapi selalunya selepas menonton filem tersebut, yang keluar dari fikiran saya ialah "Nasib tak tengok kat wayang".. Dan selepas dari itu, saya lebih suka menunggu filem tersebut disiarkan di Astro pada Hari RAya. Tak berbaloi la weh..

Mengurangkan jumlah filem asing yang ditayangkan di pawagam mungkin satu langkah yang baik seperti yang dilakukan di Korea Selatan dan China. tetapi menaikkan harga tiket hanya akan melonjakkan pembelian DVD cetak rompak. Kerugian mana yang lebih lumayan agaknye??

One hell of a service..

I hate streamyx! It has been extremely slow nowadays. It took me about 5mins to log in to Facebook, 20mins to upload pictures and it hanged so frequently. We just upgraded our streamyx, and this is what we deserved eh? TM, maybe you should reduce your CEOs paycheck and improve the service..

For the time being, I'm hating u.. You're wasting my time staring at the screen while waiting for the pages to load..

~Pissed..

Tell me a bedtime story..

Sleeping late last night watching Supernatural marathon at astro's new channel 809. The channel is airing old drama series such Buffy, Roswell, X-files and Invasion. Anyway, Buffy and Roswell bring back old memories.

Bro In-Law was coming to visit this morning so I woke up early and did some cleaning. Thought of sorting up the newspaper which is one of my favourite cleaning housechore. Sorting 2feet tall of old newspaper may need about half a day because I'll end up reading the articles, cutting interesting recipes (which I never tried doing) and the 'Mind Your Language' section in The Star.

However, sorting newspaper this morning turned out to be yucky when I discovered thousands of TERMITES making new kingdom at my stack of old newspaper. So, it took only 15mins to do the sorting which was the fastest. I burned some of the newspaper with thousands of termites. I know we shouldn't be burning any of the Lord's creature but that thing was creeping me up.

Went to KLCC to watch Bedtime Stories. Adam Sandler is Mr.Joe's favourite actor and it was Mr.Joe's time to select his movie. Bedtime Stories was OK. Funny and light.

Sick of eating fastfood, we decided to eat satay Sahmuri at Taman Melati. When we reached there, I changed my mind and decided to eat Thai Food instead. We saw Restoran Rumah Thai and went there for our lunch. The romantic looking restaurant disappoint me. I was imagining light romantic music but Mawi's reception was on the TV. We were the only customer and we knew why when we ate the food. It paid, I only liked the Apple Asam Boi drink.

On my way back, received an sms from an unknown number:

Ya, boleh tak dtg anta handphone, mp3, bank book and alarm clock.Boring giler kat cni.

Yeah,Lil'Bro Wan sms'ing already. Ma was so excited to see his baby son all botak. So she went there with Bro Pian. hmmph, it's been like only a day he's gone. Anyway, I kinda miss him already. No more teman to watch America's Next Top Model with me. I'll sms u who win for this cycle k Bro Wan?

Bro Wan yang braceface and botak. Sungguh tak hensem =)

Take care Lil'Brother..

Bro Wan registered his PLKN intake 6/2009 today. It's kinda hard to believe that Lil'Bro Wan is turning 18 next February. He is always gonna be my baby brother even how old he is. We differ 7 years. When he 1st started his primary, I was 14. I was the one accompanying him to school everyday till he was old enough to go on his own. Since I didn't attend boarding school, he was with me even when I went back home everyday with my so-called bf that time.

Last night he was packing his stuff for today n I shared my tiny bit experience during DPA outdoor module. When he get back 3months later, we may have something similar to share about.

I gave him a bottle of sunblock . I've peeled the outside sticker. and it looks just like a common moisturizer bottle. A sister will always be a sister I tell u. Thought of giving him many other things but it may embarrass him pulak. Lelaki meterosexual mane lar yang join PLKN ni.

Thanx to a friend of mine at MINDEF, Bro Wan managed to get Kem Temasya Rimba Templer, Rawang. A short distance from home. Easier for Ma to visit his baby son during the weekends.

Bro Wan n friend registering

Lots of people at Kajang Bus Station

Gossip Girl=Beverly Hills 90210+One Tree Hill+Gilmore Girls

I have finished watching Gossip Girl season 1 and season 2.. Not bad.. The typical teenage drama thing.. Anyway, I still think One Tree Hill is the best though.. Maybe because I still so much in love with Lucas Scott..

Bro Pian downlo@ded the whole season.. Ch701 and Ch711 seems useless now.. Except for The Amazing Race, CSIs, House and America's Next Top Model, I don't see the big difference of Astro and the free tv channels..

The free channels had long finished Bones, Desperate Housewives and The OC.. One Tree Hill stopped at year 3.. Room Raiders keep repeating the old ones..

Anyway, can't wait for Gossip Girl year 3.. I think Lily went for abortion-the child with Rufus.. Rufus and Lily didn't go for the vacation they planned.. Jenny is so much like Blair, only that she didn't notice..

Nate is actually very cute but I hate him getting back with Vanessa so fast after confessing his feelings to Jenny.. Serena should wear longer skirt..pendek giler sume skirt dia.. I envy those long legs she has though..hmm..

Gossip Girl will be like one of those drama who loses all the spices when it reaches year3 and so on.. Year 3 will be their 1st year at college, hopefully there's some big progress in one of them.. Like One Tree Hill, Nathan and Haley getting married and having a baby..

~At 24 and still into teenage drama

A guy named Joe..

Some1 whom I had lunch with a few days back said about this blog which was not updated for quite sometime..

Geez, that's me..
There's always something came up whenever I wanted to write a new entry, or I ran out of words and ideas..
Anyway, I'm not on leave today..Accompanying Joe to work..I should update my blog..

Joe is Wan's name back during his study days in KMS and UKM.. I laughed the 1st time he told me about it long ago.. And this name was brought up again when he met some of his friends in FB last week with some pictures of him back then..

Joe, u looked so innocent in those pics.. Bak kate Lin, "wajah penuh keremajaan and suci"..For those who have FB and friend with Joe, have a look at it..hehehehe.. Jangan marah k abg Joe..

Or should I post the picture here?? Hehehehe

What have I done..

I couldnt sleep..

Meddling with the templates.. And I accidently lost all the list of blogs I followed.. *sigh*
I'm not the pinky type of person. But this template looks nice.. =)

Awan Dania..

I'm at home enjoying my EL now.. Not feeling well but I refused to go to the clinic, waiting a few hours to get an MC..
I was watching this drama at Astro-Awan Dania.. A drama similar to this Jap Drama called Attention Please. The main character of this Awan Dania was trying too hard to be a mischievous kind of person which is not working at all..

It was irritating instead. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against M'sian dramas.. I do watch some of them, kinda a lot though.. But I hate drama yang ciplak karya orang lain.. Tengok la Attention Please, then you'll know what I mean..

~I miss the Japs Drama marathon thing

Geli2..

Eversince I have this knee pain, I dont use toilet cangkung anymore. Yang peliknye kan kat Malaysia ni, even how clean the toilet duduk is, mesti ada orang nak bercangkung atas toilet duduk.

Gila ape?

If nak mancangkung atas toilet duduk, nape tak pilih toilet cangkung jer?
Katakan lar geli sesangat nak letak peha gebu atas toilet seat tu kan, tak boleh ke letak tisu lapik atas tu ker dulu?? Toilet faberet sentiasa dicemari dengan shoe print yang tak boleh lagi dihilangkan oleh cleaner..

Lagi satu fakta menggelikan, ramai betul mereka yang keluar dari toilet tak basuh tangan. Walaupun tiada sanitizer, at least it is so much better than not washing at all!!!

Saya ni OCD sikit. Kali pertama tengok contoh spesimen air bawah mikroskop, saya dah geli2 tengok mikroorganisma yang berjuta2 lemon tu..

~Mandi dengan air dettol mase modul luar DPA. Baru rase fresh and bersih

Not enough..

While I was driving this morning, I heard from the radio that sex education during PLKN will be revised.

Generally, the purpose of sex education is to prevent the increasing case of illegal abortion and abandoning babies in the trash.. However, the community concerns that the education alone won't be enough to prevent all these problems. It will only induce the sex activity among the teenagers without getting preggie.

I learned that particular education from my secondary syllabus. No, my parents never thought me anything about this at all. I was 1st introduced to that thing during Form3's Science subject. It got deeper when I learn Biology.

My Biology teacher even asked the female students to draw the male's reproduction system and vice versa. She showed us condom, the birth control pills, how IUD is done. Tapi takla sampai tahap menyarungkan kondom pada pisang seperti dalam cerita Never Been Kissed ;)

Then it got more complicated when learning Biology during Matrix where I never got an A for that subject. Anyway, for those who don't take Biology for SPM, they still learn that in their SPM's Science subject. I had flipped through the science book and I discovered that Science subject for art students is just a combination of Physics, Chemistry and Biology subjects.

The sex education is already in the syllabus. The male and female reproduction system, how women get preggie, knowing the STDs, ways to control pregnancy, ways to conceive. Everyone learns that. It was just not called Sex Education.

The sad thing about this is, it happens among the Malay, the so-called Muslim..

Nauzubillah hi minzalik..

Spending $$$$

Seriously I need to buy a new handphone..
Eversince my phone was thrown during the accident a year ago, it's getting crazier and uglier..

Mine is a flip phone. I always slept on my phone with the flip opened.. It has all this big cracks at the join part..I guess, one day I'll wake up with my phone broken to 2 pieces..hehehe..

My ideal handphone is as slim and light as can be.. Easier to fit into my handbag..
I don't go for all the hi-tech gadget in it.. I just need the camera, mp3, sms, mms and application to write notes because my memory thing is getting rustier each day..

I am doing my personal budgeting for year 2009 now..
I have about RM150 extras each month after excluding all the expenses and savings..

I guess, if I managed to restrain myself from buying any accessories (clothes, handbags, shoes) for 6 months, I'll buy myself a new handphone as a birthday present..

Achievable? =)

~2009's wish list..

Depressed...

I need a time break...
Feels like running away to a secluded place and have no interaction with the outside world..

A friend once told me, keeping things to yourself and trying to please everyone around you will only hurt yourself in the end.. Yeah, it's true..

~Owh, my puffy eyes...

Melancholy....

It's just freaking sad when you tried to do something nice and the other person misunderstood for the other way round..

Then, just might else well keep things as usual because all you did are misapprehended as hurting the other person's ego..

Sigh..

I lurve weekends...

It's now 4.25 in the morning..

Since I slept quite early last nite, thought of waking up early to pack my clothes..
Leaving for PD later this afternoon..

I hate, I hate...

There is this workshop organized by my Dept.. Short notice were given to me which I have to substitute this other officer. Then I wanted to upgrade my room so that I can bring Ma along but they told me everything was fixed and nothing can be changed..

I've already made my plan to spend time with Ma this weekend. Thought of waking up a bit late and bermalas2an sms'ing Wan at 5am on Saturday morning like usual.

Mlsnyer...........

BTW, the hotel's name is Hotel Le Paris.. hehehe

Am still here, loved and beloved..

No wonder today's date seems so familiar..

A year ago, an accident nearly killed me.. If I wasnt lucky enough and that day was the day I should leave this world, I may have landed just a few feet from the kerb then I was gone..

I wouldnt be lying on my bed, listening to Anuar Zain's songs and typing this entry with a glistening engagement ring on my ring finger..

When you are at the brink of death, even you have only a few seconds to think, everything in your life gushes through your mind like a movie without a sound. People you love, things you've done, memories with the loved ones. Then you'll be wishing for another chance to live or maybe just an opportunity to see the one you love for one last time to tell them how much you love them.

The accident had made me to be more appreciative in life. I can control my temper better now. When I'm getting angry with anyone, I will think what if this is the last time you'll meet that person.

Talking about temper, I always remember this story Ma told me long ago. About a father telling his bad tempered son on how to control his temper. The father gave his son a wooden board and a box of nail.

Everytime the son got angry, the father asked him to embed a nail on the board. But each time he managed to control his temper and apologize, he can pull a nail from the board. Later, the board was fulled with nails. The son realized how many people he had hurt so he's trying to control his temper. Nails on the board were getting lesser each day.

And one day, there was no nail at all. He excitedly showed his father the board. The father asked him to feel the board with his fingers. And the father said, you had hurt people around you when you got angry but later you apologized. However, everytime you got angry, you actually left a scar in their hearts like the holes in the board. (Lebih kurang macma tu lah ceritanya :)

Anyway, life is short. You'll never know when is your time to go.

So love everyone in your life and live the life the way you are asked to, to the fullest.

I dont cook..

I just ate this delicious mee goreng cooked by Ma..

Amazingly, she can cook it in barely 15 mins.. One time I heard the lesung banging and 10mins later when I went to the kitchen, there it was packed it the brown paper nasi lemak style..

Ma really amazes me on how she manages to cook a few dishes at 1 time..
When I tried to do the same, one ended hangus and the other ended up tak sedap...
30 over years of experiences may have made her efficient in doing so, but still some people stay at the same stage..

Ma likes to modify anything she learned from the book or the cooking show according to her taste and ours..
Her spaghetti has cili padi in it and not as sour as the Italian style.. But we love it so much ;)

I'm still in the process of learning how to cook.. When I was in my Uni years, I used to do the cooking thing quite a lot when I went back home during weekends.. But I noticed that I haven't done much ever since.. Especially after I went back from DPA.. Hmmph, not good..

I will be a wife in less than a year.. Ma said, I should be preparing myself from now on..

For now, when I'm so tired after the long journey back home from the office, I can just lay down and fall asleep waking up the next morning not affecting anyone.. Ma is there to do the cooking and the house thing.. But later when I have a husband and a home to take care of, even how tired I am, the duty is mine as a wifey..

Anyway, to my dear future husband,
Just want you to know that,
I love to clean and tidy things up but cooking is not my thing..
I can cook but I cant promise you that it'll turn nice all the time..
I have a very severe PMS every month which will make me into a very cranky and sensitive person..
I hate people who mess things around the house like leaving the sugar jar opened..
I have migraine when I don't eat my meal on time..
I cannot siang the fish because it'll make my hands itchy..hehehe
And to be a the good wife is my promise to you...

Temuduga...

Saya pergi temuduga tapisan keselamatan tadi.. Luckily, KKM takde soalan di Parlimen, takdelah rase bersalah for leaving my partner all alone kat Parlimen..

Neway, semua yang korang kate soalan temuduga tapisan keselamatan tu kacang, dusta belaka sebab soalan2 saya macam nak interview masuk kerja..

Beberapa contoh soalan:

1. Apa itu definisi Rahsia?
2. Apa yang anda faham dengan Akta Rahsia Rasmi?

(Oh, saya sungguh tidak ada ayat exam..Cuma boleh terangkan secara bahasa pasar)

Then after soalan2 tentang peribadi (termasuk lah no.IC tunang ;), datanglah soalan2 yang bagi saya, saya rela lagi disuruh berdiri tegak and baca Rukun Negara seperti yang Mala buat semasa menemuduga orang..hehehe

1. Apakan pandangan anda terhadap senario politik Malaysia?
2. Apakah yang menjadi kebimbangan anda terhadap keadaan politik Malaysia masa kini?
3. Bagaimana hubungan anda dengan rakan bangsa lain? Boleh berikan 2 nama rakan yang bukan berbangsa Melayu.

Dan 5-6 lagi soalan yang lebih kurang macam tu...

Untunglah saya dah pergi BTN, and semua jawapan adalah ayat2 fasilitator BTN..

Ayoyo...
Adakah ini soalan2 tricky untuk menguji saya berada di pihak mana?
Or adakah ini nak menguji how discreetly I am in giving my opinions?
I was in there for 45 mins!!! Sampai Emma, my pengadil cakap, "Pesal ko lama sangat dating dalam tu.." And Emma went in there afterward merely 15mins..

Ma telah menakutkan saya dengan mengatakan I should have said,

I am entitled to my own opinions and I would not disclose them to anyone..

Waaa, saya kini sudah takut..
Should I or should I not tell him what I've been asked?
Korang rasa ni soalan2 trick ker?

Sebelum ditemuduga as calon, saya berpengalaman jadi pengadil Emma Khamis lepas..
Again, soalan2 THE BOMB..

Apakah kekuatan beliau?
Adakah beliau seorang yang suka memimpin atau dipimpin?
Apakah beliau seorang pemimpin yang baik?
Bagaimana beliau memimpin sesuatu kumpulan?
Adakah beliau layak memegang jawatan sekarang?

Wow, my mind was not prepared for those sort of questions.. Tapi goreng sajelah..

Hmm, I'm worried...

Yang takutnya, Tuan ASP tu senyum jer sepanjang2 saya copy-paste hujah2 fasilitator BTN.. Tak tahu nak jangka saya cakap salah atau tidak... How he sees me when I'm saying all those things..

Takuuuuuutttttttnyer..................

Murderer..

Yer, pagi tadi saya telah melakukan massacre terhadap sekumpulan semut api di atas meja saya dengan melekat2 mereka di salotep..

Yucks, semut api beribu2 lemon di tong sampah..
Bila dikorek2 tong sampah itu, hanya lah ade kulit gula2 and APPLE CORE..
Senegara semut2 api itu telah mengadakan party besar2an di tong sampah saya..

Masalahnya dengan pasukan cleaner di KKM ini, pekerja2nya banyak lari and kekurangan staff..
Sepertimana masalah taman perumahan di Kajang yang Alam Flora hanya mengutip sampah sekali seminggu, begitulah yang dihadapi di Bhgn saya ini juga..

Pagi tadi lalu Pantry Room, wekkkk,(jadi macam Farah kejap..) Busuk amat2 tong sampahnyer.. Bayangkanlah sampah2 makanan yang tak dikutip 2 hari masa cuti hari minggu.. Eeeee, memang busuk gilers...

Dulu vacuum tiap hari, sekarang memang seminggu sekali.. And di tempat kerani tu akan ada salji2 bulat hasil dari menebuk lubang kertas.. Sigh..

Sampai biler keadaan ini akan berterusan...

~kadang2 pelik, takleh ke tebuk kertas tu menghala ke dalam wastebin?