Settled

It is my first important yearly report.

While others took leave because it's school holiday, I was the only officer in-charge (of that report) left at the office to make sure that the report is in order (well actually, not fully in-charge because I'm only covering a tiny part of it).

Went up and down the bosses' office, made multiple follow-up calls, felt super uneasy the whole day yesterday.

However, at the end of the day, I told myself, why am I being so intense about. I'm not even an officer in that particular unit. Others are enjoying their holidays leaving me to make sure that every thing is settled? It's not fair for me right?

So I went back home feeling less stress. (lesser but still a little bit worried).

Prayed hard that the report is signed yesterday.

Received good news this morning. Alhamdulillah.. I feel relieved and let's Rango tonight :)

Heart-ache

My heart aches every time I looked at those pictures on Japan's earthquake. I couldn't imagine their suffering. And what is my life challenges compare to theirs. I wish I can do more for them.

The whole world complimented the people in that country on how well-mannered and civilised they behaved after the disaster struck.

Picture credit: CNN

I have never been to any pusat penempatan sementara for those affected with disaster in our country for me to comment about Malaysian but I've seen my fellow DPA mates beeing kiasu by taking more kuih than what one was entitled to. It may sounded very simple, "Ala, hal kuih je" but this small things shows their true personality on how they think of others at the back queuing to get their shares (whom later to find out that there was nothing left for them because of those self-centred people).

Anyway, atas sifat keperikemanusian, please donate to:

Baby..

20 months in 23 days.
Oh yes, sorry I could not stop counting again..

Last weekend, while folding up the laundry, I watched an episode of Giuliana and Bill. The one which they decided to proceed with IVF. All of a sudden, I started to cry.

Why la.. I have not even for gone any medical treatment to be sad about.

It's just that........I can feel the same pain and frustration...

Dugaan

(Oh, lebih kerap blog diupdate. Apa lagi, schedule entry la. Type banyak2, lepas tu schedulekan. hehehe)

Sesungguhnya, bila kita didatangani masalah, selepas meluahkan kepada suami, mesti hendak juga meluahkan kepada mama. Kalau tak, pusingan itu seolah-olah seperti tidak lengkap. Kata2 semangat dari seorang ibu itu juga yang hendak didengari.

Pagi ini, bila masuk ke pejabat, hati terasa lebih tenang. Meluahkan ketidakpuasan hati kepada "orang itu" juga dalam keadaan tenang dan tidak emosi.

Mama kata, doa itu pendinding dan kekuatan kita. Dengan berdoa, percayalah yang Allah akan melindungi kita, InshaAllah.

Dan kata2 Sis Yanti juga memberi kesedaran kepada saya. Bila kita didatangi dugaan, kadang-kala itu adalah balasan Allah kepada dosa2 kita. Adakah kita telah menyakiti hati suami, hati ibubapa, hati orang lain atau yang lebih penting, adakah kita telah mengingkari perintah Allah.

Kesusahan itu membuat kita menjadi lebih tabah dan lebih kuat. Sekarang saya rasa susah dengan keadaan di pejabat, tetapi hikmah di sebaliknya semua kejadian itu, saya belajar untuk menghadapinya lebih awal dalam kerjaya saya dan menganggap ini adalah pengalaman yang berharga.

Menanggung kerja yang tidak tertanggung pula; Hikmahnya, menanggung kerja setelah untuk kali ke4 ini memberi saya ilmu yang lebih berbanding rakan2 seangkatan yang lain.

Ketiadaan bos secara langsung telah memaksa memberanikan diri dengan kerap kali berjumpa dengan pengurusan tertinggi untuk berbincang dan mendapatkan nasihat, seterusnya, saya belajar sedikit sebanyak rentak dan pemikiran mereka.

Akhir sekali, tetapkan dalam hati, bekerja ini ibadat kerana Allah dan seperti ibadat2 yang lain, buatlah yang terbaik untuk mendapat keberkatan dari Allah. Hati pasti akan lebih tenang. In shaa Allah.

Terima kasih yang tak terhingga buat suami yang sentiasa memahami mood swing saya dan tidak putus asa memujuk memberi semangat.

Boss

This is just too interesting not to share. Received this via email.

Which is yours or you (in the future)?










I kept on encountering The Lost Lamb. What about you??

Retail therapy

Mari penuhi hujung minggu anda ke salah satu tempat ini bagi menghilangkan stress..


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I don't mind if I am burdened with lots of work but please give me someone competent to lead and assist me.

I'm still a nemo among the sharks...

*bersedih sambil mendengar lagi Jimmy Eat World - Invented*

Blunt

Whether I'm the traditional type or the junior officers are being so blunt in the meeting nowadays? Seriously, using real case scenarios to point faults made by other person or units in the meeting and the words used to explain it. (You know, hentam menghentam supaya semua orang tahu.)

Wow..

I wouldn't dare.

It's not because I'm such a coward not wanting to mention it in the crowd but I believe in being professional in work.

Simple things should be settled "outside", not to be brought into meetings and quarrel about it in front all the officers or staffs.

No wonder meetings nowadays are so draggy..

What do you think?

Not available

Last time was shoe polish.

We searched the whole Alamanda. And we finally found it in Cold Storage.

Today, we wanted to purchase some medication for my flu. Ah yes, no pharmacist in both Guardian and Watson's. What we received were, "The pharmacist will come in at 6pm" and "You can try at Anjung". Thank you very much.

Centre court Alamanda has this small exhibition on baking stuff. Saw my Kenwood Chef Classic selling at the price of RM2K++. I bought mine at only 200pound. It's double the price.

Meanwhile, I'm FB-ing no more. I activated and then left it deactivated again. Everyday I did the same. Therefore, you'll find me commenting using Wan's FB account. Am I getting old? Or the mild depression I'm having right now is slowly 'darkening' my life because I'm frowning more rather than smiling?

I'm still praying for the 'good news'. If March past by without it, it means I won't be able to deliver it this year at the age of 27.

The cough is getting worst. I hope it'll sooth a bit and won't be disturbing others while watching Beastly tonight. Oh yes, it's my turn to choose and it's Beastly. Hehe..

Who's interested?

This is so irresistible when I am now looking for a good bag that will last forever. hehehe

Sick

I commented on one of my friends' FB wall on how long it had been since I last fall sick a few days ago.

And here I am, lying on this bed, tissues everywhere.

I have been ill for 2 days. Runny nose, sore throat, sneezing non-stop, muscle aches..

Sick or not, work still needs to be completed whether you are at home or at the office.

Siapa kata orang G relax, boleh blah..

Tired

Most of my previous entries are all so dark and gloomy. The beginning of 2011 is not fun.

Work is eating me up. Frustration is leading to another. I get so fed-up over tiny issues and I am so tired of everything.

I don't fancy my weekend anymore.

If only I eat lesser when I'm stress, at least I'll achieve something at the end of it. hehe..

Today marks 4 years, 1 month and 1 day. No letter. We are officially the longest em-forty-one. Yay..

Favourite Film Ever

The Sound of Music.

(google image)

I've watched it so many times since I was little. And I am watching it again now. When Pa went to Austria, he bought each one of us an Edelweiss musical box. But I have lost mine....

Edelweiss - Sound of Music - Christopher Plummer's own voice from Mark on Vimeo.

And my favourite scene of all is the Austria's Folk Dance, Laendler. Christopher Plummer in long tail tuxedos is simply irresistible.

730 days ago

No wonder I felt something is amiss in the month of March.

A night before 3rd March 2009, I was busy preparing my No.1 dress because the next morning....


Ah, I like wearing the No.1 dress and the messkit.. Don't you guys?

What will you do?

Currently, I'm covering a forty-one post, the main job is on assets. I don't have a head of unit. The super boss asked my colleague, which is a C scheme to cover the head of unit post, which is a forty-eight.

Unfortunately, she can't because the circulation said, if there is other M scheme in the unit, top priority is for the same scheme. I have another colleague but she applied for transfer months ago (recently got married) so she is not in this picture.

Some suggested, I stop covering for the forty-one and start covering for the forty-eight.

It's not about money because even if I'm covering for the head of unit, we'll divide the work equally among us and so is the money. However, that is the silent mutual agreement. If anything arises, the one covering for the job will have to take the full responsibility. Will I be able to handle that stress when the internal conflict and the job are at it's peak right now?

Well, the good thing about covering for the head of unit is the merit given. I was told, it will give you a good one for your career.

Ah, contemplating..

If you were at my place, what will you do? FYI, there's a big project coming up regarding Hospital Support Service.

Why

We had this small office party where we will draw a name and then bought a gift for that person.

And today, I received this.

I have no idea why. hehehe. What ever it is, thank you.

Who wants to borrow?? hehehehe

29 years..

No, that is not my age. hee..

I'm taking 2-day leave in May. A day before and after Wesak Day. It's time to use that passport again. HRMIS has been so far 'obedient' but only during non-office hours.

Took my time went through it this morning and I stumbled into this:

I choose to be in the service until I'm 56 only. 2040 is a very nice number eh? 33 years should be sufficient enough, I think. I may opt for early pension. We'll see.

I wonder, whatever will become of Malaysia in 29 years...

Everyday, I never stop wishing for a time traveling machine. Childish, I know.

I am eating my homemade fried meehoon while typing this entry. My current obsession is bell pepper. I put bell pepper in everything I cooked. However Wan doesn't fancy it that much. Wan eats his breakfast at home while I like to tapau it to work. Everytime I open my breakfast container, I will find extra tomatoes slices or bell pepper cubes in it. Ah, the husband that refuses to eat vegies.

Works are piling up on the tray and next to the tray. *sigh* It looks like this weekend will be another busy one again.

Meanwhile, where the heck is "that letter"?? Tomorrow marks 4 years and 1 month. haish...

Days, Months, Years..

3rd March 2011.

It'll be 19 months in 4 days.

Sorry, I can't stop counting.

I couldn't help it because I love numbers so much...

At peace

Life at the office was so peaceful today without any meeting to attend to...

A colleague commented I looked tired yesterday. So I immediately looked at my reflection. Hell I was, greasy skin, pale and chapped lips, unmanageable tudung. Selekehnya.

I made a vow to myself, on what ever situation, I should always look pleasant like an officer should. At least apply lipgloss to add colour to your face.

Anyway, it has been 2 months and the skin is showing positive sign. I'm glad it is. A bottle can last for 4 months, so RM50 per month is OK.

I read somewhere that applying aloe vera gel will lessen the redness of the pimple. It works wonders for me. I applied it overnight and a few nights after that (max days are 3 to 4) then the pimple just vanished. No pus, no black scar.

I have a new project this month. Which is to replace all shoulder pads for my baju kurung. All of it flatten until they don't look like I'm wearing any. And to tell you the truth, I only bought 1 new baju kurung last year which was for Hari Raya. I just realised about it when Ma pointed that out.

So, I bought a few pairs of kain for Ma to sew. Free tailoring, yay ;)

The closest

My boss once said, the closest to us is death and the unreachable to us is the past time.

I was so sad reading this. He died at the age of 28.

Wan said, arwah was a PTD. Googled his name, wanting to find more about him, until I came across his blog. I read a few of his entries and he seems like a remarkable man.


Semoga rohnya ditempatkan di kalangan orang2 yang beriman.

Oh my..

Remember this post of mine?

It seems that I was not the only one got cheated by this lady, err, guy..

Read here.

Seee, I was not being fussy or over reacted on how my reception turned out. Those who went to lodge police reports got cheated even worst by him (I'm using his original gender).

Too bad, he messed up with the wrong person. The latest victim will haunt him until she gets her money back..

Anyway, what are to happen to those who have engaged him and gave him the deposits for their upcoming events?

Lump-sum

I always have problem finding stuff to buy for Wan. He is a very simple man. He desires no new clothes, perfume, shoes, wallet, etc.. He only buys a new one until everything is totally worn up.

His passion is badminton. And things he always wanted is a Hon*a CR-V and there were a few times he mentioned a PS3. I can't afford the first one, and the latter, I wouldn't dare take the risk. Well, you know how man get addicted to games and "abandon" the wife, kids and housechores. hehe

However, this year I managed to strike one of his wish-list.

I hope he's happy with his new toy. A lump-sum present of this year's and last year's.

Work..

Some chose to stayback at the office to finish up their work.

But I usually chose to bring back work and tried to finish it up while having the TV on, going back and forth to the kitchen to find things to eat and sometimes got startled by the sound of Wan mengigau or snores.. Hehehe

I've been up since 4am. It's now 5 and it's raining outside.....

Unfriend the unfriendly people

I remembered someone said to me before, when your instinct feels that this person (whom you've known for quite sometime) doesn't like you, it's true, he/she doesn't like you.

Observed how he/she responded to you, you'll know.

I've learned to become a civilized, adult woman since 4 years ago. I know I have so much more to learn. I tried to control my temper, kept quiet rather than cursing when I'm angry and not to become emotional over simple things. Accepting criticism professionally is definitely one of them.

However when some chose to use a different platform to criticize, I tried not to turn into a psycho-maniac and do the same in order to humiliate him/her. Responding to that, I apologized, admitted what I did wrong, wish him/her the best in life and goodbye.

Oh, yes. A goodbye.

I wish people my age would grow up because the last time I checked, reality isn't a fairy tale.

Give me strength

Receiving this everyday in my inbox definitely isn't helping.. hehe

Move on...

Did I mention that the head of my Ministry reached his 58th birthday end of last month? The third top person has been promoted to his place (the second is also retiring this year) and my head of department is now the third top person which is in charge of the Ministry's finance..

Finally, one of the top management people remembers my name.. haha.. Oh well, it is a rare opportunity to happen when you work in the 2nd biggest ministry in the whole country.. Lucky for our department.. (Errr, lucky in this context is a very subjective word..)

Not having the immediate boss is not easy. It's freaking hard. And it becomes harder when the bosses... err.. *clear throat* full-stop.. hahaha..

Work was and still is very hectic. A few days after the accident, we had a meeting for 2 days in PD and I have not rest eversince. I have done the minute and report. There will be a session with the new head of ministry tomorrow.

phew..

February is coming to an end. March is approaching. The JKPAK cycle will start all over again. The second meeting is schedule in April. *scream*

I don't have an immediate boss, the unit I'm covering doesn't have one either. Ahh, imagine the difficulties.. I have been going up and down seeing the head of department himself everyday.. huhu

Kerja itu ibadat. Kerja itu ibadat... That's what I kept on telling myself..

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I thought we couldn't make it for our movie session last night, but things turned out differently. Alhamdulillah, the tickets are not wasted. So Sanctum it is. I'm a hydrophobic. I was not comfortable at all watching that movie. Caves+water+darkness is not my cup of tea... It's a must watch movie because it was produced by James Cameron.. hehe

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If everything ran smoothly, this year's Ramadhan will be our last in P17 Putrajaya. InsyaAllah we'll be moving to another neighbourhood. Anyway, it's still too early to mention anything. That's all I can say for the time being. The lips are sealed. Pray for us that we won't stumble upon any misfortune.. :) There are still a few months left. We have more time to save money. No bags, clothes, shoes, traveling, eating out, etc for the next 8 months.. huhuhu

Painful entry..

My whole body aches..

I don't know what has gotten into me. I'm forgetful, I said things which is not in my mind eg: instead of "Lipat kain", I said "lipat ampaian", instead of "makan roti", i said "makan susu", when I wanted to brush my teeth, I went to the kitchen instead. It happened soooooooooooo many times and the climax of all, instead of the brake pedal, I stepped into the accelerator pedal. At almost 40km/j (I think so sebab sangat laju), I rammed into the parking lot pillar..

There goes my car again, into the workshop.. I can't barely look at her.. So teruk.. No choice but to make claims with the insurance.. Ah, good bye "55% No Claim Bonus"..

After a day, the bruises are showing up all over my body. My neck hurts because of the strong impact.. My right arms is swollen all over. It's painful to move the arm..

Husband and Ma asked me to take leave. But since I no longer have a boss (she's now pursuing her Masters) and another colleague is on a long wedding leave plus, we are organizing an important meeting next week, need to complete paper for Board A before end of this month and I'm covering for another post and... (ok, we geddit, you got so much work) I just couldn't leave everything to my one and only colleague.. Pity her..

Well, I have difficulties to close my eyes or letting my mind wandering around anyway. Maybe because I'm still in shock. Imagine me staying alone at our home, boleh jerit2 like in the movie since this is not my 1st time involved with car accident.. Ye ker?

This is my second accident in 5 years. I may not have the chemistry with that car.. Maybe? Should I change my car? A manual one kot? Jadi, kena la polish semula skill memandu manual :D Ke aku kena pergi mandi bunga?? hehe, kidding..

Setakat ni sama..

Siapa tengok cerita Hani, TV3, hari Selasa, jam 9 malam?

Oleh kerana di rumah tiada assteruk, cerita2 melayu la yang menjadi santapan. Setelah episod yang keberapa entah minggu lepas, saya dapati drama ini terlalu mirip dengan drama Jepun kegemaran saya, 1 Litre of Tears. Cerita yang sangat sedih, lagu yang sangat best dan hero, kurus kekek seperti yang saya suka sampai kahwin pun dengan orang kurus juga. hee

Persamaan 1.
1 Litre of Tears: Bapa Aya ada kedai jual tofu.
Hani: Bapa Hani ada kedai dobi.

Persamaan 2.
1 Litre of Tears: Ibu Aya kerja di sektor kesihatan.
Hani: Ibu Hani merupakan seorang jururawat.

Persamaan 3.
1 Litre of Tears: Aya ada seorang adik lelaki dan seorang adik perempuan.
Hani: Hani pun sama.

Persamaan 4.
1 Litre of Tears: Aya main bola keranjang di sekolah.
Hani: Hani main bola jaring.

Persamaan 5.
1 Litre of Tears: Haruto (watak hero) ialah lelaki muram yang punya seorang ayah doktor dan marah pada ayahnya kerana tidak menyelamatkan abangnya yang telah meninggal dunia.
Hani: Watak Irfan pun sama, sebijik..

Persamaan 6.
1 Litre of Tears: Aya sakit Spinocerebellar Degeneration Disease. Incurable.
Hani: Hani sakit barah otak. (Biasala cerita Melayu, barah otak ialah penyakit paling femes).

Persamaan 7.
1 Litre of Tears: Aya tak boleh masuk sekolah biasa lagi sebab dia tak boleh berjalan, jadi masuk sekolah khas.
Hani: Hani jadi buta selepas pembedahan, masuk sekolah untuk orang buta..

Bila baca sipnosis episod seterusnya, setakat ni jer lah yang sama. Takkan nak tiru sampai habis kan. Tu namanya ciplak tak de idea sendiri.

Picture credit to Google.

4 Years..

4 years ago, on the night of 4th Feb 2007, I was doing this.

Not knowing that on 5th of February 2007, I'll be meeting awesome people that will be working scattered all over Malaysia.

Not knowing that 10days after 5th February, I'll be working in that same spot I am now which I sometimes love and hate..

Not knowing that I'll get to know my soul mate in our batch forum. hee

Happy 4th Year in the Service PTD Batch 1/2007 and Happy Birthday Mala.

Now, let's pray that we'll receive *that letter* soon. *wink*

18 months..

It'll be eighteen months in 4 days..

Last Tuesday, we finally dragged ourselves to Jabatan Agama Islam Selangor to make our kad nikah. Sila gelak sebab dah lambat baru nak buat tapi gelak juga pada Din&Malia, mereka pun baru nak buat.

Boleh pulak jumpe mereka di JAIS.

The procedure took us less than 10 minutes.

Bring along a copy of your nikah cert, a picture of the husband and the wife then fill in the form (that time was blue in colour). Submit everything to the counter and pay RM40.

Kad akan siap dalam masa 5 hari bekerja tapi perlu call terlebih dahulu bagi memastikan kad tu dah siap.

Travel ke JAIS: 40minit. Submit application, <10minit. Nak balik tu tersangkut dalam jem sebab LTDL.. Kereta tak bergerak langsung, dan nasib berpeluang untuk buat U-Turn.

Lebih senang kalau kad nikah dibuat sekaligus semasa proses nak buat sijil nikah dan boleh diambil di Pejabat Agama Daerah sahaja.. Kan lebih senang begitu. Kenapa lah perlu ke Shah Alam sana..

Whatever it is, jangan lupa semak butiran pada kad atau sijil nikah. Jangan terkena macam saya, bangsa Iban pada sijil nikah... Marah tahu..

Ukur baju di badan sendiri

What is it in English?? Hehehehe

Lately, I've been reading a few forums about property. And we even read the Valuation and Property Services Department's 3rd quarter of 2010 report.

Obviously, property value in KL and a few parts of Selangor increases align with the price, massively in year 2010.

It surprises me when many forumers manage to buy a RM600K++++ property and still have time to join the forum actively. I thought these rich people are too busy working to find more money rather than waste time in the forum eh?

Well, we definitely can't afford a RM600K property. Seriously, one has to pay approximately RM5-6K per month?? phew..

However, I have a different view on buying property. This is what my mom thought me: Buy a few moderate price property AT THE HIGH PROSPECT AREA rather than a huge, expensive one.

Reason one:
Let say I have 3 small / moderate houses by the price of RM600K when I sum-up the price. One is our house and the two other are for rent (self-paying). The other two are called investment because when the right time comes, we can sell it with higher price, (maybe double) without having to pay every month to the bank because we have tenants paying for it.

Reason two:
More property baby.. If we were in urgent need of money, we can sell off one of the properties and I'm sure we can get quite a sum when we settle the bank loan. But if I had one huge, expensive property, it's more difficult to sell it (sebab mahal sangat, susah nak cari buyer) plus, I need to find another place to live because I'm selling off my one and only property.

Reason three:
A guy in the forum pointed out that buying a pricey house for your second property to rent is not a good investment. Why? Because, whoever wants to rent a semi-d at the price of RM3K per month??? Lebih baik beli rumah sendiri beb. Lama2 jadi rumah kita berbanding bayar sewa RM3K sebulan, rumah tu rumah orang lain.

Anyway, this is my personal opinion and I'm not condemning others who have bought expensive houses.. It's your money to spend :)

Cake...

Happy Birthday dear husband..

And he loves ice-cream the most, so I bought him the BR ice-cream cake.. Sedapnye..

Selasa malam Rabu adalah malam suami main badminton hingga jam 12. Sepeninggalan suami bermain badminton, saya pun bertungkus lumus kemas rumah, lap lantai then mandi, pakai wangi2 dan baring2 tengok Supernatural :D

Bila Supernatural dah habis, bersiap sedia untuk si dia pulang. Oleh kerana kek ice-cream tak boleh tahan pada suhu bilik, saya stand-by di tepi tingkap rumah tingkat 4 tunggu kereta suami masuk parking lot.

Lama oh, tunggu kat tingkap. Dah nampak kereta, keluarkan kek, pasang lilin besar di hall, tutup lampu.

Dia bukak pintu je, Happy Birthday sayang!

Maka, makanlah kek ice-cream nyaman 2 potong sorang.. Sedapnye....

ICe-cream cake BR, janganlah naik harga, kami sangat sukakan kamu...


Hadiah? Atas desakan kewangan buat sementara waktu ini, hadiah harijadi mungkin akan di'lump-sum dengan tahun depan. MUNGKIN, aku bilang mungkin ;)

It'll never be enough..

At this point of my life, I'm glad I saved quite a big sum every month. (but sigh a little bit because it's still not enough..)

Anyway, refraining myself from all those trips and pretty clothes and shoes for the past few years has been worthwhile. At least I have this sum to proceed to the next level.

If everything went well for the next 3 months or less, I can slash one of my 2011's plans. I'm so nervous about tomorrow. Please pray for us that everything goes well :)

The first step..

The first step is always the hardest, isn't it?

But sooner or later, we still have to make it..

And so I did..

It'll be 18 months in February. I can't believe it has been that long.

Visiting Pa in the hospital these few days made me realised, I shouldn't wait any longer.

Therefore, I picked up the phone and dialed the number this morning..

Listened to her explanation for almost 10 minutes regarding the cost and procedures.

Silly me, I had tears when she told me that the 1st thing we should do is to be prepared with the result, whatever it will be.

Will be calling again in March to set the appointment.

Money, checked.. Mentally, half-checked....

$

Di mata saya ada $ bila bos suruh tanggung kerja.. Hanya $ pengubat hati bila tiba2 kerja banyak tak menang tangan antara nak siapkan kerja hakiki dan kerja yang ditanggung.. "Yaya ingat lah $, bersabarlah lagi 6 bulan, bayangkan kitchen cabinet yang cantik2 itu.." bermain2 di fikiran.. Sungguh tidak bermoral.. hahaha

Menanggung kerja itu perlu sukarela bila di'offer'. Kalau kita offer seseorang tu tanggung kerja dan di matanya terlihat kegembiraan, syabas. Tapi masa saya dioffer, di mata saya hanya pandangan kabur tidak menunjukkan minat. Ini kali ke4 saya tanggung kerja. Saya tahu bebannya.

Untuk pembangunan kerjaya, menanggung kerja ada merit. Itu saya suka. Oleh kerana di kementerian ini, saya tiada harapan untuk dapat merit bagi menghadiri kursus2 atau mesyuarat2 antarabangsa, saya perlu kumpul merit dalam skop yang berbeza.

Yer benar, menanggung kerja mendapat 1/4 gaji hakiki yang ditanggung. Maka, malulah saya kepada Allah sekiranya saya masih pulang pada waktunya, sedangkan staff saya masih bertungkus lumus menyiapkan laporan. Malu kepada staff dan malu kepada diri sendiri.. Sekiranya saya telah dibayar untuk berbuat kerja demikian, saya wajib siapkan kerja tersebut setimpal dengan $ yang diberi.. Hendak ambil cuti pun saya malu sekiranya kerja sedang dalam keadaan memuncak..

Tetapi, dalam 2 minggu yang lepas, rasa tidak tertahan lagi. Apetah lagi bila diminta membuat sesuatu yang bukan dalam skop menanggung kerja saya. Sekarang saya tahu kepincangan yang berlaku dan saya kini berada dalam situasi "bahaya" yang boleh membawa stress melampau. Saya tak mahu stress, saya mahu mengandung.. hehehe

Saya masih boleh menghadapi kerja banyak, tapi saya tidak suka menajdi mangsa politik pejabat.. Itu saya sangat2 benci.. Kalau saya tak boleh tahan lagi, cukup2lah tu. Cari lah calon lain yang berkelayakan.

Terima kasih tak terhingga kepada suami yang memahami, yang setia mendengar celoteh saya, yang tidak kisah makan masakan orang lain kerana isteri tak sempat masak, yang sabar menghadapi mood swing saya, yang tolong mengurus hal rumah tangga.. Sayang awak sangat2..

Apa2 pun, permulaan tahun 2011 yang baik dengan perkara2 berikut:
1. Lulus PTK;
2. Dicalonkan untuk dapat "cek" (hehehe); dan
3. InsyaAllah, gaji batch saya naik tahun ni..

Alhamdulillah..

Decision, decision #2

Deciding on which house to buy is freaking hard. If we delay, the house is taken. If we rush, we might stumble on problems that we should have thought thoroughly before making the decision to purchase the house..

At last, yesterday we went to see a house that gave us that "good feeling" when we entered it. The ceiling is high so the house looks so spacious, even though the house is currently tenanted, the tenant takes really good care of the house, it's a ready-to-move-in condition. The house is higher than the road level, the road in front of the house is wide, many amenities nearby and the price is within our budget.

However, the agent said an interested buyer promises to place the booking last night at eight. So we told the agent, if the buyer didn't manage to come, etc, we are interested and do contact us.

We waited until 9.30pm but no news from the agent.

I'm disappointed.

When we missed a house, there's always one or two bad things about that particular house that we can think of in order to ease our heart. You know, being sour grapes :) But this house, it's so perfect, we love it so much...

Oh, well, Allah must have had better plan for us.. InsyaAllah..

Bangi

I always like B*ndar B*ru B*ngi..

Eventhough it's leasehold, BBB is always in our list..

Anyway, houses there are selling like pisang goreng panas.. Called the agent for the house advertised yesterday, the same answer received.. Booked!

In some way, it's scary.. People are so afraid of the insane price of property nowadays, it seems like everyone just grab anything which for them is a good bargain now.

You can't get a presentable double storey house below RM300K in BBB anymore.

Had a chat with an agent last night. And he gave us his piece of mind:

BBB is a good investment. Renting the property won't be a problem too. Average rent for a double storey is RM1K. So don't think 18 times when you saw one that attracts you. Letting go means someone else will take the house.

B*ndar B*ru S*lak T*nggi is for long time staying. If you are thinking of selling it in 5 years time, the price won't increase much because the development there is quite slow.

There is something not right about S*ujana P*chong he isn't telling but he said so many of them wants to sell their houses. You can get a big, nice corner house at the price of RM280K..

P*chong Ut*ma is freehold but the land area is small. 18x65 at the price of RM280K to RM300K.

Band*r Kinr*ra and Bandar B*kit Puch*ng is developing fast..

House price at B*ndar S*ri P*tra is increasing like crazy. Same like BBB, you can't no longer get RM300K for a double storey. G staff mostly bought there even though the toll costs you RM4.20 a day..

Buying at L*EP is quite risky because it's a well known abandoned project by T*lam Corp, bailed by IJ* Land. Some of the houses are showing problems now. So, be careful.

From our own observation:

D*sa P*nggiran P*tra is very expensive because it's the closes to Putrajaya and many bought there to stay for good.

Taman S*tera Kajang and P*ncak Utama Balakong are not bad too.. But there are so many factories nearby..

Went to S*ngai M*rab, the area is developing. There's a new rows of terrace house called Merab Persona. But it is not in a good area because the road is higher than the houses. The Semi-D there costs RM720K. Not liking the area, banyak sangat banglo besar tanah lot. Area tu macam untuk golongan pensioners. Amenities pun tak banyak.

We have 2 house appointments tomorrow.. We're started to get so tired from this house-hunting thing.. Praying hard that it'll be over soon..

And you can check the new Pekeliling Perbendaharaan Bil. 5 Tahun 2011 about G's house loan. For the pay we received now, we can get RM255K house loan. The problem is, is there a house selling at RM255K nowadays?

Btw, there's Pameran Hartanah Bumiputra from 7 to 9 Jan at Midvalley. So, let's go there..

It's 7th January 2011 and we are happily married for 17 months.. Alhamdulillah..

Till then..

Plans..

It's not too late to wish everyone Happy New Year, right? Happy New Year people!

New Year's Eve was spent sleeping but woke up a few seconds because of the fireworks then continued on sleeping.. Felt like an elderly couple..

New year, more plans to come.. I don't think it's lame to have new year's resolutions..

2010 was indeed a boring year for me, so I plan to give 2011 an exciting one..

At the end of last year, we fell in love with Bandar Seri Putra.. Yes, it's 30km to Putrajaya and almost 80km to KL but we love the neighbourhood so much.. It's nicely planned, it has school, suraus, KUIS is nearby and it's UML*nds. We went to UML*nd's sales gallery and asked for their upcoming projects nearby, the 450K terrace house is sold out and 2011's projects are clusters which starts at RM600K and Semi-Ds which starts at 700K.. *wipe sweats*

We have been to many areas 20-30km radius of Putrajaya and we want a freehold house so that it's easier to resell it, therefore it left us not much of a choice.. Kajang is just too hectic.. Freehold house in Puchong is either not in our range of budget or it's not worth the money because the build-up is so small..

And no, we haven't decided on the house yet.. Just the area for a start.. Hehe

For the passed month, we learned that in buying a house, we can never get everything we want. Of course, if we had hundreds of thousand in the bank account, we can just pick and choose any house. But we don't have that..

After sacrificing a lot through out the year being stingy and all, we are glad that we managed to focus on our most top priority. The traveling, the shoes, the bags, new gadgets, those can wait but the house, the longer we delay the higher the price will rise and the income we received won't make it to pay the monthly loan. Plus, a huge sum is needed for the down-payment, the legal fees, the stamping etc, etc. phewww

Second plan is get ourselves a baby. :) Firstly, we have to try the very best to breed our own, we'll go to the clinics, urut2an, medications modern, religious, homeopathy etc, etc.. And if it destined we can't get one, we'll adopt one. We are not getting any younger so we shall not waste more time.

Third is to shed 5 kgs. 5 kgs will do. I managed to retain my weight since April therefore in order to shed weight, I just have to do more activities OR to eat less and do more activities to make the plan achieved faster then I can make new plan later.. hehe

Fourth is to have beautiful skin and hair. I freaked out to see fine wrinkles near the eye and the hair isn't showing a healthy growth. I hate pimples and the black scars. So this year, I MUST dedicate myself a few minutes of 24 hours a day and a few days of 365 days a year for my beauty sake. I've started a new skin regime and so far, good signs are showing. Alhamdulillah..

Those are the 4 biggest plan for 2011..

Then I have a few 'small' resolutions like make full use of the daily book given by the G.. hehe

And of course, the MOST IMPORTANT one is to be a good ummah, wife, daughter, sister, friend and employee.. (Eh, the career went last.. hehe)

InsyaAllah..

Dream on..

Oh, I had the sweetest dream last night (even though I had trouble sleeping at first).. And I think I even had tears when I woke up.. If only the dream came true.. We'll just have to wait a few more days :)

Anyway, the 28 days period of 'confinement' is finally over. Yay, I can take leave again..

However, I don't think I'll be taking this 'second job' for long. February 5th 2011 marks the date of 4 years in service and I already filled in 'the form'. Receiving the email from HR is a bless and a relieve too.

So, she better start looking for a new candidate.. hehehe..


UPDATE:

Nope, it's negative..

Punishment

Currently, I have a huge ulcer at the back of my mouth near the throat.. I can't barely open my mouth to speak or even eat anything and my left cheek is swelling.. At night, I had trouble sleeping because it's very painful to swallow my own saliva.. Torture..

And I said, I must've done something to deserve this just a teeny weeny punishment from God but I'm glad that God still loves me and gave me this small misery as a reminder..

I remember having 8 ulcers at a time when I was wearing braces. Yes dear, 8 through out my mouth and tongue. Every time I wanted to eat or brush my teeth, I had to gargle warm salt water to numb the whole mouth. No wonder I shed kilos of weight during that 2 and 1/2 years of torture.

Anyway, from my own experience, warm salt water is the fastest cure for ulcer. Sometimes, I just put salt directly at the ulcer. Ah, imagine the pain and the tears..

Had 2 half cooked egg with a few dashes of black and cayenne pepper for breakfast and definitely broth or soup for lunch and dinner.. I miss solid food.. hehehe

Decision, decision

The phone kept on ringing.. From house agents..
I can't even keep track which agent with which house. Silly me. Maybe I should make a file for it. The organizer are filled with papers already.

The past few weeks were filled with house-hunting activities.. Went to see the houses after work which I think is the most appropriate time to go to that particular area during peak hours.

Got myself seduced with Apartment Anggun Bangi in Seksyen 4 BBB. A little bit expensive for just an Apartment, around 250K. But for investment purposes, why not? I'm sure once it is completed in 2012, the price might come to about 350K. There are a few units of type B still available if some of you are interested. No, I'm seduced with it but I didn't place my booking. Still having a war of mind about it.

Whatever it is, househunting is very tiring.. We can't wait to get ourselves The House. With the pace we're going right now, maybe we'll have one early next year. InsyaAllah. But no rest for the time being until we find one.

Well anyway, the houses occupied by tenants are usually dirty and not nice. Maybe, just maybe the tenant purposely did that as a protest because they were asked to leave the house in order for the owner to sell it. I think the owner should at least, vacant the house, clean it a little bit and only then classified it. Last Saturday, Ma and I went to have a look at a house in BBB, occupied by tenant. Euww, we went in there less than 5 mins. Leaking, very dirty, small but then 295K. Crazee..

Since we know that the house we're looking now may not be our last, we better find one with better prospect to resell it later on for us to buy a bigger house. That is the plan so far. However, those with good prospects are usually so near to town which result to traffic jam and that cannot be avoided.

Yesterday, we went to see a house in B*kit M*wah.. The interior is awesome. The owner bought the house, renovated it and wants to resell it at 320K. The price is out of our budget plus there are no surau or masjid nearby and the road in front the house is very narrow.

So far we don't want to combine our loan for some reason but the plan may change, we'll never know. And we can't buy something so expensive because our incomes won't make it to pay the monthly loan..

Due to this activity, I've abandoned my daily jog and the plan to lose some weight is postponed. Don't go asking other friend whether I'm pregnant or not because I'm just fat ok :D hehehe

2 in 1

Setiap hari, tengok barang best, tak jadi beli sebab nak simpan duit, nak beli rumah..

Sebulan sekali, tengok orang pergi merantau sana sini, tak dapat pergi.. Simpan duit, nak beli rumah..

Terngiang2: 10% deposit (3% booking 7% upon signing S&P).
Kalau takda cash di tangan pun susah tahu..

Oh, a'ah.. Sedang mencari rumah 2nd hand. Mana ada kawasan perumahan baru di sekitar 20km radius Putrajaya ni lagi yang kurang RM300K.. Kalau ada terjumpa, sila share, jangan kedekut..

*stress*

Cepat2 la dapat membeli rumah idaman dan saya boleh membelanja baki wang bulanan saya di hujung bulan tanpa rasa serba salah lagi..

Dan sering kali menyesal tidak membeli rumah 3 tahun++ lepas masa mula2 masuk kerja yang pada masa itu, rumah di kawasan idaman hanyalah RM160K dan sekarang dah mencecah RM300K berserta lumut, lalang dan pagar yang berkarat..

Sekarang sedang giat mencari rumah.. FB no more or jarang2.. Tiap kali bukak internet di rumah, laman2 web property yang menjadi tumpuan.. Setiap malam tengok update orang nak jual rumah..

Stress tahu nak mencari rumah ni..

Nak yang murah tapi burok dan dekat;

Nak yang mahal tapi cantik dan dekat; atau

Nak yang murah tapi cantik dan jauh?

Saya nak yang murah tapi dekat dan cantik.. Jawapannya: Tiada dalam senarai pencarian..


Nak rumah yang untuk tinggal sampai ada cucu; atau

rumah yang mungkin perlu disewa atau dijual (atas faktor kerja yang berisiko untuk diposting ke state lain)?

Kalau rumah tu confirm tinggal sampai tua, jauh sikit dari kemudahan pun ok lagi. Tapi kalau berisiko nak kena jual atau sewa, kenalah cari di kawasan yang ada kemudahan kedai, pengangkutan dll baru boleh kenakan harga yang tinggi sikit..


Kawan-kawan kata, gabung la loan, lepas tu beli rumah 450K..
---> Lepastu tiap hari makan makanan kurang zat demi membayar duit rumah bulan2. Alahai, pendapatan isi rumah kami masih belum mampu untuk rumah sebegitu mahal.


Membuat keputusan untuk komitmen 30 tahun ni sangat susah...

Research, research, research...


Kami dah dapat tawaran berpindah ke rumah teres di P11. Tapi kami tolak. Sebab bagi kami, bila kami pindah, haruslah ke rumah sendiri. Tinggal di apartment pun sudah memadai untuk 2 orang. Rumah itu pun sekadar persinggahan. Hanya ada perabot asas, tiada gantungan gambar di dinding, tiada bunga2an, tiada asteruk dan tiada mesin basuh.. hehe..


Tahun 2011, usia 27, saya mahu:
1. Jadi umat, isteri dan pekerja yang baik;
2. Rumah;
3. Anak (hehehe); dan
4. badan yang kurus..

Ayuh!


~Mama saya pada usia 27, sudah ada 2 rumah, 2 orang anak dan badan yang kurus.. Tak termampu teman nak kejor..

Work and play..

2010 is coming to an end.. Is it just me, or everyone else feels that this year moves extremely fast?

I was asked once again to cover somebody else's work. An officer who's now undergoing his 6++ month course.

Yeah, I will get paid. A quarter of his basic salary monthly.

However, it's not about the money, it's about the responsibility.

Now, I have more work to do..

So, why am I wasting my time blogging about it now??? Haha, see ya..

p/s: I can't take leave for 28 freaking days which ends on the 26th. Since I still have 20 days more leave this year, should I or should I not take a 5 day leave straight from 27th to 31st??

House-hunting

Looking for a house is exhausting.. We went up to Sg. Long and got lost in Semenyih yesterday.. At the end of the day, I suffered from severe migraine and dear husband had to skip his weekly badminton session in order to take care of me.. Thanx abang..

Coming back to house-hunting, the house price is skyrocketing like crazy. An ugly, dirty, 1400sqf house in Bandar Baru Bangi can reach up to 300K which was only 200K in year 2009. Since there is no more new area launched within 10km radius of Putrajaya, we had no choice but to opt for 2nd hands. But it is not cheap.. Plus, some needs major renovation which costs more money.

*sigh*

House-hunting needs us to do homework, research and calculations; the leasing, the area, the market value (in case we got transferred to other state and need to rent the house), the distance, the time consuming, the build-up, etc, etc, etc.. Whether it's the cheap but ugly 2nd hands without renovation, more expensive 2nd hand but with some furnishing and renovation, or Bukit Mahkota's or Seri Putra's which are a bit far but nice beautiful houses..

*head-ache*

How I wish I can skip all these things and buying a house is as easy as choosing a blouse.

A year occupying the quarters have costs us almost 5K. Quite a big sum for something we paid which is not going to be ours. We have to find our own house quickly but...carefully.

We can combine our govt loans and buy a 400K house for instance BUT... our monthly income can't afford to pay that much monthly or to cough-up a big chunk on down-payment.. And I can't finish up my savings, I need to have some in case of emergencies.. Plus, we have to think of the extra monthly expenses when we had kids later on.. Ah, so much to think about.. This is why I hate being an adult.. hehe

Anyway, as we were browsing through properties on auction's websites, we came across a house. The reserved price is so much cheaper from the the market price for a house in that area. Asking here and there about the procedures. Luckily we have a friend who is kindly enough to help. However, in order to join in the bidding, we need place a deposit of 10% of the reserved price. So I guess, it's time to use up part of my savings and the EPF money..

Then, we need to do some research on the house itself before the bidding day and we haven't even had a look on the house yet. We are familiar with the area but we don't know the condition of the house. What ever it is, this is our first experience about auction and bidding. I'm kinda excited. Even if we decided not to go for the bidding or lost on the bidding, this is a new knowledge to learn.

No more Putrajaya Seafood

Last Thursday, Sis Yana came to stay overnight at my house because Ma's flight from Australia will be arriving at 3.30 Friday morning. Therefore, KLIA is so much nearer from Putrajaya than from Selayang. So, that night we wanted to eat something different other than mamak restaurant or Thai food.

Since I never ate at Putrajaya Seafood Restaurant, I brought them there. And here is the bill..


"Titbits" was the kacang rebus they served while waiting for the food. RM7 for a very small portion. There was no napkins, so they gave us wet towel and again, it was charged.

The wet towel

The place looks rather exclusive. The panoramic view is nice. The food was tasty except that the portion is very2 small.

However, the Stir Fried Chicken Chilly with Cashewnut had more cashewnut than the chicken itself so I would like to recommend it to be renamed as Stir Fried Cashewnut with Chicken Chilli instead.

Anyway, we were kind of disappointed with one of the waiters (whom didn't even wear a nametag).

Our waiter that night was a bit rude and clumsy. When we wanted to order the vegies, he recommended baby kailan but we ordered something else and he responded, "Suka hatilah" with the face as if he's angry we didn't order baby kailan. In the end, the vegies didn't arrive at all and when we asked about it, he said he forgot to place the order to the cook and no remorse shown on his face. He spilled the tomyam while serving us, no "excuse me" while preparing the plate or while serving the food, main tolak2 je suruh kita ke tepi.

He hold the spoon at the bowl of the spoon instead of the handle. Which I think it was not hygienic at all. Same went with the bowl. He didn't carry a tray but he carried the 4 bowls with his fingers tercelup ke dalam mangkuk itu. (Boleh imagine kan macam mane??) Eeeuuuuwwww...
So this is what we get with the 10% service charge?? Waiter Kenny Roger's pun lagi proper la...

No thank you, we won't come again or recommend this to our friends....

Things to ponder

I haven't been a good friend and in fact, I haven't been a good daughter either since getting married. No, I'm not blaming on the married life, I'm just a bad time manager. Always procrastinating on everything.

Therefore, when Ma confided to my sister saying she misses her baby daughter, I felt so guilty and made a promise to myself, I must make a habit to call Ma every day. Even how busy I am, what is a few minutes of my precious 24 hours a day compares to my mom.

Having a chat with Ma just now, she asked me a simple question.. "Why do I want children?"

So, Why do you want children??

Cepat jawab?


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Sebab anak ialah pelengkap keluarga? ------> WRONG

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Sebab nak bagi zuriat kepada suami? ------> WRONG

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I answered, "It's for my afterlife. It's because children are the only thing left when I'm no longer here in this world that will continuously pray for me"

RIGHT!

So, when that is my niat, be it my own children or others, as long as I teach them well, insyaAllah that is the best treasure in this whole wide world..

Sobs...

Ma cakap, mungkin kita banyak dosa sebab tu tak dapat apa yang dihajati. Jadi beristighfar la banyak2 setiap hari. Dan ada ustaz ni cakap, di dunia akhir zaman ni ada satu jin yang suka makan janin keturunan yang baik2 dan membiarkan keturunan yang kurang baik berleluasa ramainya supaya menghasilkan komuniti Islam yang tidak berkualiti. Sungguhpun demikian, Allah la yang mempunyai kuasa yang paling besar. Jika Dia hendak beri, tiada apa yang boleh menghalang..

Dan mungkin, sekarang bukan masa yang terbaik untuk kita bak kata suami saya tiap kali saya menangis bila datang menses.

Selamat menyambut bulan perkahwinan yang ke 16.. Eh, eh, bukan hari ni, lagi 5 hari.. hehehe

Wasted..

Not that slang wasted.

A friend of mine, graduated in electrical engineer from one of the prestigious Uni in Korea quit his job as the govt engineer recently. He's an electrical engineering graduate and was asked to do civil engineering things. He couldn't cope and the work given were not his passion. So he resigned, currently working with one of the top international microchip companies and so happy with it.

Well, his contract stated, if the govt were unabled to offer him a job * year(s) after he graduated, he is no longer bonded with the contract. But if the job were offered within that * year(s), contractually, he must work with the govt for 4 to 5 years. My contract carries the same clauses, except for the sum of money sponsored of course. So I was kinda shock because I thought overseas scholars should be given more strict clauses. hehehehe

Luckily for him, the govt offered him the job AFTER * year(s) he graduated. So, when he felt he can no longer tahan with it (not doing what he has learned for 4 freaking years), he resigned. The contract was not breached so the govt loses another great person. When I say another, it means, this happens a lot..

It kept me wonder, didn't the "high fliers" there do any research on what particular sector is critical and needs sponsoring so that when these smart people graduate, they will fill in the empty posts needed in the govt sector rather than being asked to do jobs that are not related at all with what they have learned in the univ?

And when these students were sponsored hundred thousands of ringgit each, is * year(s) sufficient enough to bond them?

In the end, the private sectors are at the winning side. They don't have to sponsor anyone but they get all the good brains that were sponsored by our govt..

Bravo!

Pea brain

My car was stuck in between 2 cars this morning..

I thought of driving my car to work but got annoyed instead.

Stupid people.

Luckily we have 2 cars.

What if we only had 1 and there's an emergency and we desperately need to use it.

Ni susah tinggal dengan kelompok mentality dunia ketiga.

Pagi2 dah buat aku naik angin... Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Siapa tau berapa harga alat yang clamp tayar tu? Aku nak beli. Nanti siapa parking kat depan kereta aku, aku nak clamp.

Lose weight and chance to win prizes

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Just accept the challenge and even if you didn't win, I'm sure you'll lose a few pounds.

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Natural beauty

Rasenye saya tak ada.. Hehehehe

Ditambah pulak extra 10kg.. Urghhhh..

Anyway, minggu yang malang sebab tertinggal serkup tudung yang dibasuh di rumah Mama..

Maka hasilnya, pergi kerje dengan sedaya upaya menutup rambut daripada keluar2 daripada tudung.. Dan cube mengelak dari keluar bilik selalu, nanti nampak rambut sebab tudung bawal ni jarang..

Lepas tu, entah apa tak kene, jerawat naik menimbun2. Tiap hari pakai Aspirin Mask yang digaul bersama madu. selang 3 hari saya exfoliate, kalau tak, hanya tepek2 kat muka selama 10minit.

Teruja membaca rakan blogger yang pergi SK-II facial treatment. Kata beliau, kulitnya banyak jerawat masa zaman muda mudi dulu. tapi setelah setia bersama SK-II sejak 2 tahun dulu, kulitnya jadi cantik. Tiba2 terasa nak beli pack SK-II. Consult dengan Noni, Noni said, "U better try cheaper product first. Kalau teruk sangat, pergi skin specialist" ehehe

I have read a lot about skincare products. It's about trial and error. Product A may be good for Z but it may not work for Y. Geddit? The trial and error costs $$$$. And some may say, product A will show signs of improvement after a few months.. It's very risky to your money..

Noni menasihati supaya memakai clay mask setiap malam. And drink plain water banyak2, pastu exercise. Sweating ditch away body toxins..

Suami pula, menasihati pergi buat rawatan resdung Permat* H*jrah..

Which one should I try first?? :D

Zits, my bestfriend forever. Never leaves me since puberty.. *sigh*

Gear 5 once again?

And if she had made up her mind, then I'm so dead..

It will be my fourth time now..

Eventhough I'll be getting extra cash, what is money compares to time and all the stress I'll be having..

Bells

It's not advisable to put a collar with bell on a cat because it may disrupt it's nature to catch mice. Well, the mice may runaway when they hear the sound of the bell.
However, pet cats nowadays hardly catch anything. So, it doesn't make any difference, does it?

Meanwhile, for Muslim women:

Nauzubillah hi minzalik

It's a date..

HP7, Thursday, Wangsa Walk, 11.20am, twinseat - checked!

It doesn't seem appropriate to go for a movie on Wednesday, so Thursday instead.. Cheaper and more time to spend together..

200 pages to go on HP7 novel, khatam kali ke berapa entah. And I still cried when Dobby died and Harry dug Dobby's grave with his bare hands.. Sobs..

Oopppss, spoiler for those who haven't read the book..

Dislike

Tahu, nama aku ade orang buat lagu. Tapi tak perlu lah bila selisih dengan aku, lalu depan bilik aku, nak nyanyi lagu tu.

Aku rimas tahu.

Pastu kenapa selalu nak komen muka aku garang, muka aku pucat, aku jarang senyum.

Aku tak senyum dengan orang yang buat aku rimas.

eh, eh, nape tibe2 guna aku? Emosi terganggu.. maafin :D

Jealous??

Aku kecewa kenapa aku tak diraikan semasa pemergian nak pergi DPA?? Oh kenapa? kenapa??!!!

Hahaha, ko ni tak habis2 nak jeles ar. Dah bukan rezeki ko..

Oh, baiklah..

Hari ni buat makan2 meraikan pemergian staf yang keluar bahagian DAAAAAAAN juga sorang staf ni yang nak pergi DPA.. (WHAT?!!) Siapa lagi yang kat bahagian die meraikan perpisahan sebab nak pergi DPA supaya aku tak rasa pelik, sila angkat tangan. Ok, takyah angkat, tak nampak..

patplohsatu kene bayar rm15 tapi aku tak makan pun. Mestilah mahu makan dengan si suami tinggi. Tengok muka suami, makan dengan suami dapat pahala. Aku nak pahala.

Lagipun, dalam ucapan orang yang nak pergi DPA itu (siap ucapan ok) ada menyelit berita gembira yang isteri beliau disahkan mengandung. Aku sekarang tak boleh la dengar perkataan mengandung.

Orang lain pun semua ucap tahniah bagai, aku jadi orang extra emosi, aku blah dari bilik mesyuarat tersebut. Tahu, tahu, aku tak patut buat macam tu, tak profesional. Tapi aku extra sensitif.

Minta maaf.. Sekian..

High heels

Kalau dah pendek tu, buat cara pendek demi kesihatan kaki anda.. Nasihat untuk diri sendiri.. hehehe

New style

Received via email. Worth sharing:

Sumber Dari Seorang Kawan:

Semalam, saya sampai ke ofis agak awal. Jadi saya duduk dululah dalam kereta sambil mendengar lagu. Tiba-tiba, terkejut saya apabila ternampak kereta peronda polis berhenti dibelakang saya. Dengan penuhgaya, seorang polis datang ke arah saya.

"Selamat Pagi, Cik Kak.."
"Errr selamat pagi"..jawab saya, dengan nada yang terkejut. Tahu yang saya nampak panik, polis tu tersenyum sambil berkata:

" Selalu ke ofis, memandu sorang diri ke?"..

"Errr.. ya, saya sorang je. Apahal Encik..?"

"Beginilah, saya cuma nak menasihatkan awak saja. Awak tak buat kesalahan apa-apa, jangan takut. Cuma...macam yang kita semua tahu, sekarang banyak betul berlaku gejala ragut, rogol, cederakan, bunuh.. berlaku kepada wanita. Orang-orang yang
tak sihat ni, selalunya akan perhatikan dulu mangsa mereka, beberapa hari sebelum dia nak mengganas".

"Saya nasihatkan awak, jangan terlalu menghias kereta yang boleh menggambarkan sesebuah kereta kepunyaan wanita. Kalau boleh, anak-anak patung dan bunga-bunga, jangan diletak didalam kereta. Biar 'mereka' susah nak membezakan kereta lelaki
dan kereta wanita. Lagipun hiasan anak-anak patung ni memang menjadi pemikat kepada mereka-mereka yang suka bersembunyi dicelah kereta, terutamanya dikompleks-kompleks beli-belah untuk mencari mangsa. Sebab mereka tahu, hanya wanita saja yang suka
menghias kereta dengan anak patung nih".

"Banyak kes ragut di tempat parking, mendapati penjenayah berada ditepi kereta mangsa, beberapa minit, sebelum mangsa sampai.. Dan salah satu cara mereka nak tahu kereta tu milik wanita atau lelaki, ialah melalui keadaan dan rupa dalaman kereta itu. Jadi berhati-hatilah, jaga diri baik-baik". kata polis itu lagi sebelum berlalu.

"Terima Kasih encik.." jawab saya, bertambah-tambah pucat. Errrrrrrr... . betul jugak. Tiba-tiba terus perasaan takut menjelma. Sebelum ni tak ada pulak. Memang tak terfikir saya sebelum ni, yang hiasan kereta juga mengundang bahaya.

Hmmmm... nampaknya Hello Kitty, Pooh dan kawan-kawannya tak boleh lagi berjalan-jalan bersama Kancil saya. Kena duduk kat rumah aje.

Moral of the story:
Hiasan kereta bukan saja menarik kanak-kanak, tetapi juga menarik penjenayah!!
-> Kepada semua pemandu wanita, JAGA DIRI!! Tolong sebarkan kepada yang tersayang

Maka dengan itu, tak perlulah letak segala pasu bunga, pokok bunga, kusyen, tilam bantal bagai dalam kereta..

Women...

Not mine, repost:

Para wanita hendaklah mengambil pengajaran daripada pohon semalu dari 4 aspek:

Pertama, pohon semalu akan kuncup apabila disentuh. Ini boleh dibaratkan bahawa wanita perlu mempunyai perasaan malu (pada tempatnya).

Kedua, semalu mempunyai duri yang tajam untuk mempertahankan dirinya. Oleh itu, wanita perlu tahu mempertahankan diri dan maruah sebagai wanita muslim.

Ketiga, semalu juga mempunyai akar tunjang yang amat kuat dan mencengkam bumi. Ini bermakna wanita solehah hedaklah mempunyai keterikatan yang sangat kuat dengan Allah Rabbul 'Alamin.

Keempat, semalu akan kuncup dengan sendirinya apabila senja menjelang.Oleh itu para wanita sekalian,kembalilah ke rumahmu apabila waktu semakin senja.

Ambillah pengajaran dari semalu walaupun ia hanya sepohon tumbuhan yang kecil.

No wonder my parents didn't allow me to go out after Maghrib..

Dan, tak suka pulak tengok yang ada bonggol tinggi2 kat kepala. Maka saya jumpa ini:

To buy or not to buy

The thing about online shopping is that, it can be very addictive. Especially those websites which you had experienced their good quality products and tiptop services.

And hoyeah, today is payday.. Been updating my budget sheet in excel yesterday and.....

I have to stick to my budget plan. period.

Sis Yanie's contena from UK had arrived.. So I need to pay all the products I've ordered.. Phew..

I put my monthly savings in TH and I left some in the salary account just in case I'm in emergency need of money, then I can just cucuk the ATM machine while if TH, you have to fill in the form, wait for your turn, get your thumbs dirtied with that ink-thing and it only runs on weekdays.

So, if I'm unabled to fight my desires to buy things, I can still click the "submit" button while ordering stuff online since I know I still have a small sum in cimbeng.. Bahaya, bahaya..

I've resisted a few stuff.. And I'm so proud of myself.. teeheeeheeee

But when Nawar commented on how Miracle Water works wonders on her skin, terus rasa macam nak try.. hahaha.. Ah, the black acne scars won't disappear on this fair skin of mine.. It's ugly..

Cant' wait for December's payday which is in 40 days. Start counting.. hahaha

Happy payday everyone.. Don't overspend eh :D

It should be no problem

PC di pejabat adalah benda yang paling rapat dengan saya di pejabat ni.. Ianya telah bersama saya sejak Mei 2007 kami menghabiskan masa bersama selama 8 jam sehari, 5 hari seminggu.. Bila PC ini jatuh sakit kerana serangan virus yang melampau, hard-disknya rosak, saya pun rasa sedih sebab orang IT tak back-up emel dalam Outlook saya.. Grrrrrr, geram.. Geram dan susah hati pun tak guna. PC yang diformat tanpa buat back-up outlook, memang takkan boleh retrieve emel2 tersebut.. Buat ape susah hati atas perkara yang menangis air mata darah pun takkan boleh berubah.

Ini work-station saya.. Memang tak 5S langsung :D

1. Pokok pemberian mama.
2.Telefon hadiah kawin. Masih berdiri teguh. Harus diletak berdekatan kerana kami suami isteri masih bersms sentiasa seperti pasangan berchinta.
3. Itu Ron, pemberian Naz, hadiah harijadi yang ke-23.
4. Itu rerama comel yang boleh letak gambar tapi belum letak gambar lagi.
5. Wajiblah ada gambar lelaki terhensem di dunia.
6. Mug flusk - barang pertama yang dibeli mase masuk kerja. Ala2 ciri wanita korporat gitu bila letak atas meja. Wajib minum 6 mug sehari..
7. Itu doa yang diamalkan setiap pagi supaya bekerja dengan baik dan berkat.

Borak2 dengan orang IT, dia kate effing secure tu tak berkesan pun, maka saya pun telah ambil insiatif untuk install:

Yay, hanya spent sejumlah wang, lebihan lesen sorang budak kat L*wyat.net ni dan pc saya protected selama 365 hari. Effing secure dah di'uninstall..

Ape lah sangat untuk aset kerajaan teman sejati saya..

Ok, kembali bekerja dengan semangat :)

Another plan..

a. There are days when you felt like doing nothing when stepping into your office room, rasa nak tidur dan boring jer..
b. There are days when you work like crazy, semua laju2 sampai tak makan lunch pun tak rasa lapar..
c. And there are days where you work as usual, tak laju, tak juga lembab lepastu kejap2 cari kudap2an ape dalam laci..

Yang paling ideal adalah b, tapi jangan la sampai tak makan..

Tapi harini saya adalah a..

1. sebab pms.
2. sebab berat cuma turun 300g, itu pun ralat plus minus kot.

omg, ni cerita pasal berat badan lagi ke?

ehehehe..

Diet hancur minggu lepas sebab:
a. Pergi outstation ke Temerloh, hospital jamu nasi kerabu for morning break (nasi utk morning break tu!) then gulai ikan patin for lunch.. Hancur..
b. Belakang buku lali sakit lepas tu lutut pun sakit, jadi tak pergi jogging..
c. Asyik makan keropok je sebab minggu lepas cuacanya mendung2 saja, sesuai betul makan keropok goreng dan teh'o ais limau.

On certain things, I'm very impatient. Macam nak hilangkan jerawat kat muka, malam ni pakai dalacin-T dah expect sok muka licin bak kulit telur.. Dan lagi satu, nak turunkan berat badan, seminggu tak makan nasi dah expect badan turun 3kg.. peh.. camtu, takdela orang gemok kat dunia ni..

So, I reviewed my diet plan.
1. I can't live without carbs. I love fruits and bread.. I can live without rice, but without fruits, tak boleh..
2. I hate drinking that supplementary drink. I had to add in ribena so it will taste better. Lepas tu mata merah berair tahan nak muntah.

Again, I'm changing the plan. (See, tak sampai sebulan dah tukar plan...)

I did some reading yesterday about fitness and dieting, then I came across this real life story from a girl who manage to cut down 10kgs without having to diet or did strenuous exercise.

Add on to all those reading, I came up with this plan:
1. Brisk walking EVERYDAY for not less than an hour. Calories start burning after 20mins of continuous physical activity. Since I hate jogging, brisk walking for 1 hour per day won't feel that stressful eh? Jalan laju2 la, jangan jalan macam couple teenagers pergi dating, saja jalan lambat2 supaya lambat sampai destinasi..
2. No unhealthy fatty snacks in between meals. Say no to chocolates, keropok2, biskut2 (Biskut kering Jacob's untuk orang berpantang tu boleh la). Bila rasa lapar craving for tidbits, minum air suam, makan buah atau makan roti high fibre.
3. Aktiviti mengelap rumah dikerapkan. Dulu sekali seminggu, sekarang 2x seminggu.
4. Wash clothes manually. Selain menambah aktiviti fizikal, kurang juga bundut baju bawak balik ke rumah mama tiap hujung minggu. hehehe

This plan should last for at least 6 months.. On my 27th birthday, I MUST have the weight like when I was 19.. Kamarul Redzuan Nali sila jangan gelak

I want to print this plan + a picture of Yaya kurus and place it everywhere in the house dengan tajuk PLAN 26 APRIL 2011 BERAT 48kg.

Say no to:

Chocolate sedap dalam locker kat office..

Pada ketika ini, Yaya sedang menahan diri supaya tidak mencapai coklat tersebut.. Merana siut...

On babies

Me, not good with babies, toddlers or kids?? Oh please.. Bukan nak riak but I've taken care of my baby bro since he was a baby. And Ma used to leave him with me when she went out buying groceries or did some other business outside while I was merely 8 and he was only 1++ years old.. And I play with my sisters' children and Wan's anak buah..

So when one commented I'm not good with kids may be the reason why I'm not conceived yet is totally unacceptable and very insensitive. What is happening to our community now? Semua main cakap lepas je..

I love kids and I do wish to have one or 2 or a few bunch of them.

But I don't just cuddle some other people's baby, give them a kiss or fondle them because I fear I might transfer germs or give them disease. The most I would do is pinch the cheek or hold their hands and before that, I'll make sure that my hands are clean.. And I will never go near them if I'm not feeling well.. Babies are fragile small people..

That's me people..

Take a break.. Sticky post

Something I received via email..

MOMENTS IN LIFE

There are moments in life when you miss someone
so much that you just want to pick them from
your dreams and hug them for real!

When the door of happiness closes, another opens
But often times we look so long at the
Closed door that we don't see the one,
Which has been opened for us

Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
Go for someone who makes you smile,
Because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.
Find the one that makes your heart smile.

Dream what you want to dream
Go where you want to go
Be what you want to be,
Because you have only one life
And one chance to do all the things you want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet
Enough trials to make you strong,
Enough sorrow to keep you human and
Enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily
Have the best of everything;
They just make the most of
Everything that comes along their way.
The brightest future will always
Be based on a forgotten past;
You can't go forward in life until
You let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying
And everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end,
You're the one who is smiling and everyone
Around you is crying.

Don't count the years - count the memories...

Wealthy students

Bermewah2 dan pergi clubbing bila dapat duit biaya siswa.. <-- aktiviti segelintir siswa siswi.. Hujung sem makan nasi dengan telur..

Saya terkejut bila mendengar amaun biaya siswa dalam negara yang diluluskan oleh uhuk, uhuk ni pada tahun 2007 ditingkatkan sebanyak 67% per tahun.. Amaunnya sangat2 banyak.. (Lepastu fikir2 balik, 2007 selepas tu 2008 ada buat, ehem, ehem..)

Bayangkan pada zaman saya, yuran per semester dalam julat RM1-2K ikut berapa banyak kredit hour yang diambil dan tambahan sikit bagi yang tinggal di kolej kediaman uni, maka ada lebihan dalam 1K++. Bagi siswi penjimat seperti saya, uhuk, uhuk, boleh save dalam 500 ke 800/sem, kumpul2 lepastu pergi buat braces..haha

Dan sekarang, fuh, banyak betul.. Standard tu pada zaman saya, hanya budak Pet*****, Es**, Sh***, M****** je. PTPTpuu pun dalam range cukup2 boleh hidup seperti budak biaya siswa gomen ni.

Saya setuju jika review kadar dibuat untuk course2 kritikal seperti Medic, Dental dan sealiran, tapi untuk course lain yang tak berapa mahal, rase macam tak relevan. Boleh naik ikut kenaikan taraf hidup tapi kenapa banyak sangat?? Lepastu, saya tertanya pulak, budak U**M dapat kadar sama ke sebab setahu saya yuran di sana dalam beberapa ratus je per sem. Perlu tanya penyain surat tu lagi. Sejak aritu asyik kacau dia pasal perkara ni. haha

Pemilihan adalah computerized, syarat pertama, mesti dapat pointer ditetapkan kemudian lihat tanggungan dan pendapatan isi rumah..

Adik saya bengang. sebab, ehem.. Tidak dapat dinyatakan di sini, sensitif..

Ape2 pun, saya kata pada adik saya, biarlah apa orang nak buat, yang penting adalah keberkatan duit yang diterima. Lepas tu, ayat garang sikit, belajar2 la jimat dah tahu mama papa tanggung..hehehehe.. JANGAN NGADA NAK ADA AWEK!!! Dan beliau juga sedang berusaha gigih untuk skor sem 1 dan apply sekali lagi.. Good Luck :)

Tomorrow should be better than today

When I was little, when BM and BI subjects have this particular part where you have to write essays, I realised that I hate writing; because I was and still not good at it. My favourite BM teacher during primary, Cikgu Osman always told us to read more books and articles in the newspaper in order to write better. Trust me, I did, but my writings were always the the dull, boring one. Even my personal jurnal are boring.

After PMR, I decided to choose something to do with science that requires no essay or paper writings in my job later on plus, I'm an introvert, I dislike having myself in a large crowd. I took Food Science and Nutrition, and yay, everything was so straight forward. Tak perlu ayat bunga2 cinta. Tesis pun semua facts and theories. The work is in the lab most of the time, wearing labcoat, surrounded with chemicals and high-tech machine.. That's so me :)

And then...........

Almost 4 years ago, I chose what I'm doing now. Yang pada ketika itu, saya berada di persimpangan, ke kiri atau ke kanan dan saya pilih ini. Tiap hari tulis surat, buat paper dan adakalanya kena buat paper JM. Dapat pula bos dari bhg kabinet. Maka draf surat/paper saya semestinya asyik ade bunga2 cinta kaler merah.

And it was so hard for me to finish up my PPK paper. Last buat tulisan ilmiah ni mase DPA kot.

This can't go on forever. This work I'm doing now, do require writing skills, papers, reports, letters etc..

And in order to write better, I need to have facts and knowledge too. Tak boleh tulis kosong je. Kerje ini bukan macam buat kerja lab, masuk sample, ade result. Result pula yang sukar/tak boleh disangkal. Siapa nak bantah, pergi bantah orang yang cipta analyser tu. Kalau result salah, sama ada buat salah or alat rosak or alat tak calibrate betol. (oh rindunya perkataan calibrate :). Sekali run sample, bukan run sekali, paling kurang 3 kali. Jadi, peluang untuk salah sebab diri buat salah tu tipis.

Tapi, apa2 kerja pun ada dugaan dan cabarannya. Kawan saya Food Technologist kat Penang kate, "Boring ar keje, asyik run sample, pastu setahun mesti kena pergi kursus luar negara 3-4 kali setahun belajar teknologi baru. "Boring" gila." Chis, saja nak buat aku jeles.

Holding on to Wan's favourite quote, "regrets bring you nowhere, it won't change the past. So do something to make the present a much better place to live"

Baiklah.. Esok perlu lebih baik dari hari ini..